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Stuck in My Head
Methamphetamine
Citation:   coke head. "Stuck in My Head: An Experience with Methamphetamine (exp48748)". Erowid.org. Apr 23, 2019. erowid.org/exp/48748

 
DOSE:
  repeated   Cocaine
    repeated smoked Methamphetamine
BODY WEIGHT: 165 lb
I tried meth with my x-girlfriend, a formal meth addict about 6 months ago. I was up for the most part of 9 days previously on cocaine before I tried meth. I smoked it and snorted it but enjoyed smoking it much more cause of the feeling of intense head swelling and eyes gouging out when snorted. I was up for so long doing coke all day every day for 9 days when my girlfriend decided it was a good idea for me to try meth. I was skeptic but of course my decision making process had been a little sceud after extreme coke use....

I am very experienced with cocaine (at least a ball, 3.5 grams, a day for a year, and decent amounts for the two years before that) and meth was nothing close to the effects of cocaine. Meth was so much more intense than any upper I had tried previously. I was very upset with myself for making the decision of trying it because I said that I would never try that drug, but I definitely didnt want to stop using it when I still had it on me.

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Me and my girlfriend were driving around after buying a meth pipe at 4 in the morning when I took my first hit. It was an overwhelming feeling of awakeness, which is hard to come by after 9 days of heavy heavy coke use and no food. I was so jumpy and awake that I couldnt sit in my seat after the 2nd or so bowl we smoked.

I continually smoked with her while we did random things like driving around and buying new pipes after we dropped two of them. Eventually we noticed that half of the ball was gone and she got mad at me for burning the bowl too fast, I had no cares in the world though.

When she told me that I was smoking too much I began to look for some meth that I could have possibly dropped on the seat or the floor of her car. I spent the next 7 hours with her in the car lookin for meth that wasnt there and smoking things like fluffy seat material. I smoked about 2 bowls over the course of those 7 hours of shit that I found on the ground and I dont think a single thing I put in the pipe during those hours was meth.

Eventually we looked back in the bag and noticed that we hadnt touched the second half of the ball in 7 hours and we were both overcome with joy to have had so much left still.

Again we smoked two huge bowls and again I got stuck again, this time in my own head. I spent the greater half of the rest of the day talking to myself about how to quit coke. I sat in her car, unresposive, and uncarring to the world around me.
I met up with one of my friends at his work and was giong to sell him some coke. I thought he would say no if I asked him if he wanted to do meth so I took the liberty of putting it in his lines of coke for him without him knowing. He was unbelievably angry with me when he found out why a gram got him so fucked up and why he came down so fucking hard. Me and my girlfriend eventually left and did the rest of the meth we had.

Untill then, I dont think I have ever really come down hard. I hated the coke comedown but it was comparable to the meth and 9 day coke binge come down. I have never experienced anything like it in my life. It was miserable and every part of my body ached. I tried to eat but couldnt force a god damned thing down my throat. I hated my life and was so depressed I constantly comtemplated suicide. I hate that stupid slut for telling me it was ok to try that shit, cause it fucked with the chemicals in my brain for weeks after that. Life wasnt fun and that shit wasnt even fun considering the hell it put me through after the intense high.

Exp Year: 2005ExpID: 48748
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Apr 23, 2019Views: 2,070
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