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Ego Shatters and I am the Earth
Salvia divinorum (5x Extract)
Citation:   Whentunder. "Ego Shatters and I am the Earth: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (5x Extract) (exp55071)". Erowid.org. Mar 4, 2009. erowid.org/exp/55071

 
DOSE:
1 hit smoked Salvia divinorum (extract - 5x)
BODY WEIGHT: 170 lb
this was my first experience with any psychedelic, although I have been reading about them for a couple of years. I was about to obtain my first mushrooms when a certain plant crossed my path. I was staying the week with my friends at their apartment in southern california and we had been smoking pot for a few days straight when one of their friends offered us a chance to try salvia. I jumped at the chance.

He filled the bowl of the bong about 3/4 of the way and instructed me to take it all in one hit and hold it until for at least 30 seconds. I did as I was told and felt nothing until the moment I exhaled. I was sitting in a cushoined bowl-shaped chair as I took the hit, I then melted through the back of the chair and my ego and senses were shattered. there were no visuals at this point, in fact I could see nothing. my senses were not reaching me whatsoever, I had completely left my body and could not remember ever having one.

I was existing as an entirely non-physical conciousness and this was too powerful for my mind to cope with. I became very afraid in a sort of detached way. I suddenly became aware of stars and churning balls of light floating amidst the empty vaccuum I was in. slowly I could feel myself being pulled downward by some force. I could then feel myself existing as the entire planet. I was aware of my entire 'body' (the earth) the way that we are aware of our bodies during waking life. I could sense everything on my surface and was aware of every action being performed all at once. once again my mind could not stand to process that kind of information, I became alarmed and still had no idea that I was a human that had consumed a drug.

Slowly my ego shrank again and I became the house that I was in. at this point I had been helped into the living room by someone. I was aware of my body being the house, and I could feel everyone in it walking on me. after this I saw myself sitting on the couch, but could not recognize the figure as myself. It appeared to be a giant stone building in an odd shape covered in tyedye (my shirt). eventually I went back into my body but still had one foot in the salvia world, so I was unable to speak to the people around me. once I fully realized what had been happening and where I was, I was overjoyed that I and everything else was once again existing. over the next half hour I slowly reintegrated into my body and tried to explain what had happened to me.

This was the most tremendous and transcendent thing that has ever happened to me, I still cannot fully remember or understand what happened so I hope to explore the salvia space more in the future to gain an understanding of the drug.

Exp Year: 2006ExpID: 55071
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Mar 4, 2009Views: 4,270
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