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Dream Into Nightmare
Heroin
Citation:   Mass Ave. "Dream Into Nightmare: An Experience with Heroin (exp66234)". Erowid.org. Jun 16, 2018. erowid.org/exp/66234

 
DOSE:
  repeated   Heroin
BODY WEIGHT: 180 lb
This is my first experience report, so I'm going to give it ago.

From about Summer 2005 to Winter 2007, id tried mostly every drug. Pot,cocaine,ectasy,lsd,various pills,mushrooms,alcohol,opium,and a few others I am probably forgetting. Until then there was really only one drug I hadnt done, dope.

I live in a rich, mostly white, suburbia near boston. A place you wouldnt expect to find dope junkies, but suprisingly, theres quite a few. My bestfriends much older sister was a junkie. I had always been disgusted about the use of heroin and never really thought about it or seen it. This all came to a crashing end at the begining of July 2007.

It was a nice summer afternoon and I called a well known drug addict in my town looking to score some coke. I call him and he tells me he can not aquire any coke, but, there is some brown he can get ahold of. I tell him no thanks and hang up. But after about a good 20 minutes of contemplating it, I decide to call him back and tell him I am down. I dont know why I ever made that phone call.

I got 50 dollars and bout a small bag of light brown dope. We parted ways and I was in a buddies car and snorted a few small lines. I felt very little of anything. After a while though I got that warm bliss and bought another bag a few days later. I snorted heroin for about a week off and on with the junkie until I met his ex girlfriend.

We will call her L, she was 28 years old and a beautiful junkie. I hooked up with her and her older boyfriend and began my rapid descent into hell. I remember the first time I shot up. Everyone around me was doing it and I couldnt take the curiosity and longer. I took a soda bottle cap, squirted about 15 cc water in and a small line of dope. Threw in a cotton ball, sucked it up and hit a vein.

That first time shooting up was amazing. It was like an extremely satisfying orgasm. After that I started shooting dope almost everyday for 2 months. I was stealing money, scamming businesses,and selling everything I could. Around late August, this lifestlye changed dramatically. I was on probation and always played smart and passing tests. My parents figured I was on dope and were heartbroken. They told my PO and he tested me. I failed for pot, coke, klonopins, and heroin.

The very next day I was admited to a 90 day inpatient rehab program. Withdrawal was hard but not too bad. This is where I am at right now. Halfway done with the program and thank god, 40 days clean. Heropin is not a social drug at all, it is a sick disease. It took my family away, my home, my girlfriend, and all my friends. Want to know the worst part of it all? I am only 15 years old.

Exp Year: 2007ExpID: 66234
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 15
Published: Jun 16, 2018Views: 2,264
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