DOSE: T+ 0:00	30 mg	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
T+ 0:20	120 mg	oral	MDMA	(pill / tablet)
T+ 0:00	3 mg	oral	Pharms - Risperidone
T+ 0:00	2 mg	oral	Pharms - Clonazepam

BODY WEIGHT:

99 lb

My mindset going into taking my first dose was great. I had gotten some fruit smoothies for my friend and myself, and some other forms of flavourful hydration. This was my first time taking MDMA; I had taken MDAI before, when I wasn't taking Risperdal, and I had a great time on that. I hadn't found any information saying that taking MDMA whilst on Risperdal would lead to serotonin syndrome; in fact, all I saw was something saying SSRI can blunt the effects of MDMA. I take the Risperdal for schizoaffective disorder, and the Klonopin for generalised anxiety disorder/to prevent panic attacks.

At any rate, at 14:40, I took approximately thirty mg of MDMA (laboratory grade) orally on an empty stomach. I then ate a blueberry muffin. Nothing had happened by 15:00, so I took approximately another 120 mg (also orally). I then had my heart broken. My friend and I went outside to talk about this after an hour of me sulking and not feeling anything. We waited around for another friend to arrive home, and when he did, I reported to him what happened. At this time I began to feel very drowsy, and was sitting in the warm sun in a comfortable chair.

Apparently, I dozed off to sleep. One of my friends came out to wake me after an hour, and I went back inside. I couldn't focus my vision on anything, felt woozy, and just generally unstable on my feet. I sat down on a couch, and everyone who was home (my four friends) saw that I was not all right. They all advised me to go lie down if I felt uncomfortable, which I did, and pulled a blanket over me because I felt chilly.

My friend who supplied me with the crystal MDMA (we'll call him Q) kept coming to check on me; another friend checked my pulse, and it was fine. Q supplied me with water and got status updates from me. I laid there for about another 2.75 hours, worried that I might die, but at the same time accepting that at which time I got up to use the bathroom. I had difficulty urinating. My pupils were quite dilated. All of this and my heartbreak led to a panic attack. I still felt very foggy and it was hard to see things. I sat at my computer, and just messed around on that until about 22:15, when I was able to finally leave and go home.

Overall, I had a fairly nightmarish experience.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 100084
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 27
Published: May 20, 2020	Views: 735
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