DOSE:

1 g

oral

Mushrooms - P. cubensis

BODY WEIGHT:

59 kg

I'm an 18 year old guy, constantly being battling with depression on and off and some sort of social anxiety when it came to girls and very self conscious about my looks. I'm just your normal introvert like being on my own etc. I smoke weed regularly, and the closest I had to psychedelic is nitrous oxide and 10x salvia which didn’t work.

I've been researching recently depression medication and shrooms was one I found and said to be very effective, later I keep researching and find out its so easy to grow, so I did and tried it out. Mazatapec cubensis in about a month I had my first gram, at 23.00 Thursday night.

My setting is in the house with the parents sleeping upstairs and I downstairs. I start taking my gram out on the table looking at each one, which one first. I took them all dried natural, taste isn’t as bad, tastes like normal mushroom with a very weird strong bitter sort of taste. I have a sliced lime on the table ‘coincidentally’ there, that was my day to trip?

Anyway I'm watching some tv, waiting thinking this gram wont do jack, watching tv and on my phone with a video of some trippy visuals, of like optical illusions and spirals and flashing lights and a trippy song on youtube.

+30 mins I'm watching about 30minutes in, I'm getting dragged in the video, but I think nothing of it at this time.

+ 45 minutes in I keep thinking whens this going to start? This gram going to do anything I keep looking at the clock. All of a sudden I turn my head from the clock and I see a trail of the clock as I look away. Wow I say to myself getting really happy! So this is tripping. Colours very sharp image amplified. Walls everything.

+1hour start to trip all of a sudden very stronger than I expected from a gram. Staring to get anxious but its very mellow like butterflies. I start moving my fingers in front of my eyes nothing happens. Then I put my arms on the table on my face. Start crying but not load because my rents where up stair. It’s like my mind needed a cry just to let go, this felt so good! My face muscles felt massaged so did my mind and brain, I needed to let this crying out.

+1:30 I change my mindset saying to myself I want to experience more. So I get up of the chair start walking towards the mirror. As I was walked on the wooden floors, the light reflection hit of it, and the grain of the world looked like pandas and it changed in a girl screaming with her mouth wide open. I didn’t at all freak out, I knew from the research this is my sub conscious mind projecting it self.

+1.38 I get to the mirror, I look I look high! My eyes diluted I'm so happy to be feeling this. I keep looking my eyes smudge into a black whole into my cheeks, I keep melting, my face looks evil change to an distorted stuff, but again I don’t get scared I'm amazed.

+ 1.45 I go back to the table after the hypnotizing mirror, to put music on my phone, I put on some dark dubstep its none of this mainstream stuff, very different. I put it on my mindset slowly start to change, I'm getting all this evil going on I get up to walk towards the mirror again, everything morphing into evil. I go to the mirror I looks so evil, so I say I guess I'm evil deep down and still amazed. I finally turn away from the mirror, look toward the table, everything is scratched into like 45 degree angle up, all the pictures everywhere look evil stretched the faces look like they got horns. Clothes on the chair morph into a kind of gremlin hiding inside, something subconsciously tells me to squash it, this is your insecurities and negativity inside you, I moved the clothes so the gremlin didn’t manifest its self any more, and I felt so much euphoria and power.

2:00am I sit at the table again, totally tripping. Look up to the lights so bright, looks like when you look at a bright like and squint your eyes you can see the sparkle things, it was like that the lights look like jewels, I'm so amazed and grateful to the shrooms and my life, seeing all this beautify.

2.10am my jaws are stiff as hell, open I'm literally dribbling at how shocked I am at this experience.

2.16am I look at an empty chair in front of me, the grain of the sandy colour cloth starts to change into Aztec, cave cartoons. It keeps changing into different images, I'm so amazed I'm start crying at its beauty again, full of positive rushes through my mind. Euphoria.

2:26am the high here on is more mental, the colours still there but less visual, your mind literally feels like its been on a trip a holiday, its feels so refreshed like you have no mind, its all connected to your surrounding. I put some music on, this time with earphones, some Chilean Spanish hip-hop. I close my eyes, I can literally see the music in my mind, I can see a visualizer you have on your computer inside my brain, a colour for each instrument, and crashing and wobbling as the song went on.

2.35am I start thinking about my problems and insecurities more, like what my problem they mean nothing you are nothing compared to this universe stop being a pussy. With the girl problem I felt they are just animals in this universe, they too are nothing. I feel a lot of euphoria but starting to feel tired rushes of energy rushing all over the body legs, spines.

2.43am I decide to go bed, my dad left a candle on in my room safe distance away, I go onto my bed with this room dark room lit with this candle, and my music in. I start to feel like thoughts old native Aztec, where they would trip with shrooms and lay inside a tent and just reflect, with a fire in the middle. I felt so relaxed and content and thankful to the shrooms and nature and universe as a whole. A shadow turned into a hill and a car started racing on top of it. I can’t sleep, but yet I feel like I've just woken up chilled, and cant wait till tomorrow even though it is.

3:00am here on I was just falling in and out of sleep, thinking till I I finally did at about 5am. Felt good the next day.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 100425
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 18
Published: Apr 8, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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