DOSE:

28 g

oral

Nutmeg

BODY WEIGHT:

70 kg

--ingestion--
11:30pm started eating nutmeg
11:35pm about 1/3 is down and I've made coffee to assist the nutmeg's passage
11:50pm While responding to a reddit comment I had the following realization:
meaning - the influence (power) of a situation (post)
purpose - what initiates (cause) a situation (pre)
12:15am I have completed my task of ~28g of nutmeg

--onset--
1:38am made a cup of tea to (hopefully) assist digestion. Am considering resting until morning
1:55am I read that fats & oils can assist in myristicin absorption so I made peanut butter on toast
2:28am the slight of touch of my fingers, a numb pain surrounds my body
2:52am smoked some tobacco to relax - passed out in bed

--comeup-- (The following wasn't written until after 6:01pm)
5:15am my alarm went off awaking me to the cold harshness of my surroundings. I struggled to fall asleep or get up for the next few hours. The trip had intensified and I started to feel strange sensations throughout my skull. The nausea sicked its teeth in leaving me half-awake on the verge of puking.
11:00am I gave up trying to rest and ventured into the kitchen to grab some food. It was well-needed and I craved more but being broke sealed my fate. This was going to be a depressing trip.
2:00pm after resting again I still feel awful as my life situation dwells over me. I start to consider stabbing myself.
4:00pm 2 more hours of self-pity and I'm still trapped. I'm realising more and more how much pointless suffering life puts people through.
4:20pm I ravage up a cone of weed from stems and scraps on the bench then play Red Faction to keep my mind occupied.

--comedown--
6:01pm I'm eating porridge and able for the first time in many hours to put my thoughts into words. Though I suffered a lot throughout this trip it has shed some light on my own unhappiness in life. I've realised now that very few people survive on logic and rational because surviving doesn't *require* logic or rational. Life sucks.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 100737
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Jun 7, 2018	Views: 1,142
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