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Its Like Losing My Lover
Citation:   MissMolly. "Its Like Losing My Lover: An Experience with MDMA (exp101164)". Erowid.org. Apr 29, 2019. erowid.org/exp/101164

100 mg oral MDMA (capsule)
The first time I tried MDMA was in march 2013. It was the most beautiful experience of my life. I had taken half a speed and was so thirsty I ended up drinking all of the liquid where we had emptied the capsule.

The high was so intense I felt like I was melting into everything around me. The sight of the lights and people dancing to the beat was like a child seeing disneyland for the first time. It was beautiful and lasted from about 5am to 2pm. The comedown was a bit of anxiety and depression with constant reminiscing of the feeling I had the night before. I felt so sad that it was over, it was like I had lost the love of my life.
I felt so sad that it was over, it was like I had lost the love of my life.

The next time I took MDMA was on June 24 2013. Another amazing experience one capsule and I could feel the music rushing through me. However it was a bit too much at times and I would shout out WOOOOH! But it felt great and I was able to sleep afterward for a few hours before the sleep disturbances started for a day or two where every 1-2 hours I woke up in a panic thinking it is late and I've slept too much. Still I was excited to do it again. On July 6 I had been out and had done a lot of coke and had only slept 4 hours but decided to go to an electronic music event and take 1/2 an mdma. This time the high was good but really too much and I almost panicked.

Exp Year: 2012ExpID: 101164
Gender: Not Specified 
Age at time of experience: 29
Published: Apr 29, 2019Views: 593
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