DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 hit	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 2:30	1 hit	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 5:30	2 hits	smoked	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

170 lb

It was around 430 am, 5.5 hours after first ingestion, that my mystical experience began. I had eaten a second tab of acid about 2.5 hours into the original trip. So, I was around 3 hours into the 2nd hit, so I was starting to trip hard, I was beginning to feel my physical form disappear. At this point, I took 2 hits of marijuana and about 20 minutes later, I lay down, and began to examine the contents of my psyche. My stream of thought at this point had become 3-dimensional, and it was beginning to overwhelm me a bit, as if I was 'losing control'. At that point I opened my eyes and rose from my bed, and as my body moved, the watcher became the watched. That which sees all that which hears all.

I was struck flat by the utter sameness of everything , like little swirls in an infinite ocean of energy. I was beginning to piece things together on a higher level but I thought I could heal myself with some fresh air. When I was outside, my physical body began to blend into the surrounding world to a point where it was obvious to me that the physical body is nothing at all really, its more of an idea or a pattern. I began to see and feel that the entire universe existed only in my mind, and I began to see how all things are one, and I began to see the one, I began to perceive of the infinite nothingness from which this consciousness descends. From this point on, my vision of eternity only became clearer and more frightening. Examining this existence, I was engulfed in a stream of logic that flowed inexorably to the infinite. For lack of a better term, I knew for certain that I and god were one and the same. I saw that my true form was an immortal something, and I saw that I was simply observing myself. It was as if I could see from all eyes of the universe and every perspective looked the same. Of course the word 'look' is not really accurate, because this vision was one of ideas. When the stream of consciousness became a field of consciousness, a three dimensional matrix of consciousness, then time ceased to exist. Time became redundant. But there was still eternity, that I must pass in sleep for it could not possibly be tolerated otherwise.

At one point, I was in the shower, begging the experience to spare my poor ego. It (my ego) simply vanished and was stretched out on a clothesline in the back blowing in the cosmic breeze like linen.

I was more frustrated with the stress of being forced into this alert state. I had to be doubly alert to protect myself from doing something stupid, out of pure sadness really. The realization of cosmic consciousness hit me hard in an emotional way, because it basically turned my perception of the world inside out. Any way, I had to be alert, even if watching myself was the ONLY thing I could do.

I ended up taking my dog for a long walk as the sun began to illuminate the horizon in the hour before sunrise. I remember having thoughts that I was nothing other than a pile of leaves blowing in some strange wind.

I said to myself, LSD is a trap. It captures you and destroys you for all eternity. But in the end, my mind seems to have come back. As time goes on I feel I am losing my sense of the infinite. But I can say that experience will never leave me. I now know more clearly than I have ever been able to know, the nature of consciousness and existence. I wrote that I would never do LSD again, but I can see myself taking the challenge again. If nothing else, just to be able to describe it in more detail.

But I can remember clearly telling myself to stop using it. I even flushed the remaining two hits down the fucking toilet... Thats how scary this shit is. There are no words to describe the infinite. It is beyond the mind, it exists in archetypes, like the gears of a watch ticking away for all eternity

I definitely dont want to use LSD any time soon. But I will say it is an incredible drug. It is not a drug. It is a wormhole of self discovery through which the clouded mind of god can gain clarity and gaze upon its own boundless form. To a human being, you might say this feeling is 'weighty'. It felt like being dead.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 101411
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 30
Published: Sep 22, 2019	Views: 605
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