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One Foot Above and Behind My Body
Cannabis
Citation:   hybridpain. "One Foot Above and Behind My Body: An Experience with Cannabis (exp101794)". Erowid.org. Oct 6, 2019. erowid.org/exp/101794

 
DOSE:
  oral Alcohol
  2 - 3 hits vaporized Cannabis
BODY WEIGHT: 155 lb
OBE on Cannabis

To begin, I’ll share some background information. I grew up in a Mormon household, was a missionary in Central America for 2 years, and did not start experimenting with mind altering substances until grad school. Also, once I started experimenting, I went too far and too fast. I was not prepared myself. None of my friends prepared me either.

It was not my first experience with marijuana and alcohol. I had gotten high and had some drinks at least 4-5 times before this. My smoking partner was my girlfriend (now my wife). She was an experienced user at this point, and had been smoking since her teenage years. She had medical grade cannabis from a dispensary, and unfortunately I don’t know the strain or blend. We didn’t have much bud left, but she grinds it herself, and had a lot of “keef” or pure cannabinoid crystals in the bottom of her grinder, so we put that on top of the bud we had left and vaporized it. I had had a few drinks prior to this, but was not really buzzed or drunk off the alcohol.

I took 2-3 very large hits off the vaporizer, and she took 5-6. We chatted for a bit and then I talked her into having sex with me. She’s more of a hang out and watch TV kind of stoner, but she indulged me. We had very enjoyable and vigorous sex for what I would guess to be about 30 minutes? Its so hard to gauge time when you’re altered.

Afterwards we were spooning and I had my eyes closed. I think I was having CVE’s? I know that’s not common on marijuana, but I was seeing shapes and colors in my minds eye. Interestingly, I recognized a lot of the patterns as things from my childhood, books I had read or toys I had played with. All things I thought I had forgotten a long time ago.

I feel asleep briefly, but awoke to a feeling I had never before experienced. I felt as though I was one foot above and behind my body, watching everything. I felt numb, and very scared. I thought I was going crazy. My heart started to race, and I came in and out of my body but never more than a foot or so.
My heart started to race, and I came in and out of my body but never more than a foot or so.
I could feel my thoughts racing faster than I could keep up with them.

As I was pacing around the room frantically, breathing hard, grabbing my chest and sides of my head, my girlfriend woke up. She said “Hey, what’s wrong? What’s going on?” I tried to tell her what I was feeling, but the words were doing a bad job of explaining it. She said, “I think you’re having a panic attack.”

I ended up going to the emergency room, convinced I was dying. They gave me some IV benzodiazepines and suddenly I was myself again. I felt very silly at this point.

I continued to have panic attacks every time I smoked marijuana after this, and only tried it three of four times again. The panic attacks continued long after I stopped using marijuana. I went to counseling and started a small dose of effexor (venlefaxine) and they are mostly under control now.

Exp Year: 2010ExpID: 101794
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 28
Published: Oct 6, 2019Views: 486
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