DOSE:	repeated	smoked	Cannabis
	repeated	vaporized	Cannabis	(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

250 lb

Brief history: never done 25i before. Have taken LSD 3 times mushrooms about 5 and an undisclosed metallic tasting RC (which allowed me to have relatively vivid closed eye hallucinations and occasionally open eyed hallucinations for months after).

The beginning of the day was spent waiting for the special package to arrive. I hadn't eaten all day and the mail arrived at 3.

People present: me and my friend who I will call S and his dad's girlfriend Who I will call N. S and I took 4 hits each and N took 2. Note due to time traveling and not looking at watch/phone I had no sense of time. During the come up and throughout we smoked a few jays and took a few dab hits. I don't remember when I crossed over but this was the first time I have. In past trips I have always enjoyed awesome visuals open and closed eyes but all with some context of reality. I remember staring at the concrete floor in the garage when the top layer began to look like a sheet of glass with multi colored maggots gyrating back and forth like they were cleaning the other side. In the background a playlist of RJD2, little people and j-walk was playing.

A thought that was planted in my head began to become my main focus. I had heard Neil Degrasse Tyson talking about infinity. In short 'the power of infinity is that not only has everything happened before it has happened an infinite number of times'. It began to feel like I was being flung into an infinite number of different realities across eons where I was in the same place with the same people but our past experiences had been different. The easiest pop culture reference to use is like coming out of warp speed about once every second. (For almost the entire duration.) I was imagining all the possibilities when S and N started having a conversation but I have no idea what it was about. Then S stated how long have I known you I think talking to N as a general statement that we had known each other for a while. Or I was just being a catatonic asshole ignoring the fact that he was attempting to make me be a part of the conversation. I didn't take the bait but I began to imagine that we were in a parallel reality where our civilization was much more advanced and the how long have I known you was more of a comment about the fact we had done psychedelics so often yet I was incapable of conversing. S eventually got up and started walking around my peripheral vision and he stated don't mind me. To me it seemed like he was part of the stage crew of my life who was working on fixing an error like he was fixing the lighting. Once S came back it felt like I was a part of a test to see if I was worthy of a promotion S and N were corporate operatives not interviewing me but combing through the programming of my brain. I imagined them going through the imaginary wiring of my brain and examining flaws in my programming revising certain portions removing others.

Then I began to imagine myself standing at the edges of my consciousness (imagine the edge of space). There was a pool in the middle with a red outline and I was walking along the edges. I began to go through portions of my programming like synonyms for words to determine which ones to say, how to word my sentences (not that I was talking). And I realized that this is just my brain at work slowed down extremely but this is the programming I used. Then I imagined that my mind's programming was being studied by Other beings human in nature but no clear picture. They were selling the programming of my brain they were running tests introducing stimuli that had flaws that were not correct that I logically knew what was wrong with it and how to fix it. The beings stated see how quickly he identifies and solves the problem...

Then as I continued being flung into alternative realities I was flung into a lecture and began to laugh, the lecturer made a comment along the lines of forgive him their civilization is ancient and they have little understanding of logic and reason. Looking back this goes back to how my parents influenced me. My mother was happy and dumb my dad was logical and miserable. These are the primary flaws in how I think I associate happiness with weakness/stupidity/'living in a fantasy world' and depression with intelligence/strength/'living in reality.' But what is reality it's your plane of consciousness that you are choosing to be in at this moment for infinite number of reasons. Other notable moments include one realm of reality was when S and N were talking they were exposed as robots and They were both thrown into my life to see how I would react, how my actions were affected, how my thoughts were affected. Possibly within a few seconds I also imagined them as flowers letting off endless amounts of pollen and it hit me that human relationships are at the core the enjoyment of others' company and conversations. Also when we went to order food they ordered pizza online and I imagined it was a survey to see how marketers could sell things to me better. I could care less about food at that point.

But I couldn't get the idea of simulation theory out of my head. And it made sense that as technology advances what is going to be the most difficult thing for technology/evolution to overcome is TIME. Well what if instead of just your life you could live 1000 lives In a simulation because time could be manipulated easily in your mind but not easily in 'reality'. Why not live the lives of all your relatives or 'great' people, or ones that do a lot of drugs. Which also enforces the possibility of infinity that from this point of your life until the end of your existence all there is is possibility. Infinite numbers of possibility. In one of your existences when your heart was broken or lost a loved one you could not bear it so you committed suicide in another existence you enjoyed it because your programming was fucked up. Well how would you want to react. Would you want to learn from your mistakes grow as a person spread love and happiness to all the people around you. Why don't you? Because of fear, because of your guesses at how you will be perceived. Well you are not being perceived in one light your actions aren't given concrete meaning by the people that are perceiving you they are thinking of infinite numbers of motivations, reasonings just like your mind works.

Do I truly believe I am living in a simulation? Honestly I'm not sure and it also doesn't matter. What does is that from this point forward I can go in an infinite number of directions each will have its own pros and cons costs and benefits but I have the ability to choose. This is my new outlook on life that I am just going through one of many lives and I want this one to be the best one possible filled with as much laughter and joy as possible. But with the knowledge that pain is inevitable and problems are unavoidable. But If a problem can be solved there is no need to worry if a problem cannot be solved worrying will do no good.

This turned more into ramblings then what I originally intended I am sober now but have a vivid memory of these experiences and regularly launch back into a portion of these states of minds.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 101993
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 25
Published: Apr 11, 2020	Views: 1,919
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