DOSE:

1 bowl

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract)

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

This was my fifth time smoking Salvia, a substance that I honestly have never really enjoyed or gotten much out of. It's always had an uncomfortable and rather sharp effect on my consciousness. The after experience always felt fine and brought me back to my state of being with dignity and calm, not this time. I've had a lot of experience with psychedelics, but nothing ever horrified me like this.

I decided to smoke a little more than usual to explore what others have described to me as a powerful visual experience. I only filled the bowl once (40x extract) and took a hit from a standard water pipe. Within 30 seconds everything went dark. I felt a small pinch or a concentrated tingle that zig zagged through my body and somewhat beyond the confines of my skin. Suddenly, a familiarity with a world that was detached and uninviting became more real than the world I live in. I thought to myself 'This can't be', I can't be from 'here'. What this 'here', represented to me, was a kind of time prison. All of my future selves and my present or past selves were colliding with each other slicing me to pieces in a kind of self displaced washing machine. Any movement from my part pushed me deeper into the mess of slicing and colliding mirrors that chewed me up mercilessly. I was finally spit out into a hallway where the walls that were made of an organic geometry (kind of like an aperture on a camera) slowly stopped moving. I could see a light at the end of the hall that seemed as bleak as the room I was imprisoned in. I never lost contact with the idea that I had just smoked Salvia, but feared that I could get trapped there for an eternity. It was a burning fear that coursed through my body in bolts of lightning.

As I came to, my sitter was sitting on my chest. I had spent 5 minutes rolling around on the floor screaming, though I had no recollection of any of that. This is my first real dissociative experience. I will not be looking for any more like that one.

Exp Year: 2013	ExpID: 102027
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 43
Published: Mar 1, 2021	Views: 530
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