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Coming to Terms
Huasca Combo (Syrian Rue & A. confusa)
by Kylie
Citation:   Kylie. "Coming to Terms: An Experience with Huasca Combo (Syrian Rue & A. confusa) (exp103339)". Erowid.org. Aug 5, 2015. erowid.org/exp/103339

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
3 g oral Syrian Rue (ground / crushed)
  T+ 1:00 9 g oral Acacia confusa (tea)

BODY WEIGHT: 140 lb


First I boiled about 9 grams of acacia confusa 3 times. Each using about 1 1/4 cups of water and Several ounces of lemon juice.

I steeped it for 2 hours a session. Then filtered it repeated all and, after 3 steepings, reduced it to 1/4 cup of liquid. Then I proceeded to take about 3 grams of crushed syrian rue seeds. After about an hour I drank the liquid and went outside. After about 20 minutes I vomited up the liquid and the seeds. Then went back to my bed and laid down.

For about 10 minutes I came up to psychedelic euphoria. Visuals set in. Light began to crystalize. And time began to go away completely. It didn't slow down per say, it simply went away.

Nothing could prepare me for what happened next.

Reality melted. Time dissolved. I was facing endless possibilities. The visuals started and took me on a tour of ancient Egyptian mythology. I saw the sphinx, mummies, Egyptian gods and goddesses, hieroglyphs, and pyramids.

Then it turned into what I can only describe as a total invert of reality. DMT wanted to show me her power. She made sure to let me know that she could destroy me if I ever disrespected her. It was like reality as I once knew it ceased to exist. Pictures of circus performers danced with Hindu gods. This felt like hours but it was really only 20 minutes.

Then the ego death happened. She wanted to show me what she could do for me if I respected her. I died. I was then reborn into a girl from my childhood that I used to have a huge crush on. I lived her life from beginning to end, birth till death. Then I got reincarnated again into someone totally new. This happened about five times.

Then the Gaia came to me. She took over the experience. She showed me my inner self. What will make my life worth living. She showed me my feminine side. I have always been uncomfortable as a male, and have expressed my desire to become a woman with many others but I never quite came to terms with it until tonight.

The visuals that Gaia showed me depicted me as a woman. It wasn't like I just saw the visuals. I became the visuals. I was her. I totally forgot about my male body and lived what seemed like a few days as my true, inner self. I was at peace for those few moments.

I then left hyperspace suddenly. It wasn't a gradual come down to just being high, it was 1 hour 20 minutes and 1 second I was in hyperspace, then 1 hour 20 minutes and 2 seconds I was just euphoric with mild visuals and trippy thoughts. In the next few minutes my ego shrank further as I realized that, in the grand scheme of things, I am irrelevant. Gaia then told me 'The meaning of life is to learn' and bid me farewell.

It was like a dream. One minute you're in wonderland, barely coherent, the next you're back to normal. All in all my experience was about 4 hours long. The only thing I feel now is being slightly off balance. Making walking slightly interesting, but other than that I am sober after about 4 hours and 30 minutes.

My experience was very beneficial to me. I came to terms with both my sexuality and my gender identity. I also gained a feeling of empathy for the people I have harmed as a result of my dysphoria. I am going to seek a way to make amends to them some how. I would highly recommend oral DMT to anyone. It was the best decision I have ever made in my life.

It also freed me from the huge crush that I had, and removed my desire to ever use hard drugs again (I have been to two rehabs, and multiple therapists to combat a nasty benzo/opioid/alcohol addiction that I have struggled with since the age of 14) a desire to smoke or dip (I am now going to reduce my nicotine level that I use in my vaporizer) and cured my fear of living life as a transsexual.

Overall, my experience was just what I needed to be whole and mentally healthy again.

What makes it better is that this was my second experience with the drug. I noticed no tolerance build up even though this was my second night in a row using the drug and breaking into hyperspace.

DMT truely is 'the Spirit Molecule.' It is the cure to the human condition and should be respected as such. This is not a recreational drug at all. Do not take it lightly.

Exp Year: 2014ExpID: 103339
Gender: Not Specified 
Age at time of experience: 18 
Published: Aug 5, 2015Views: 4,667
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