DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 hit	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 2:40	100 mg	oral	MDMA	(powder / crystals)
T+ 3:40	50 mg	oral	MDMA	(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

70 kg

Ultimate pleasure of Mandy, Lucy and the Lion
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WARNING: English is not my natural language, so please excuse any bad grammar and spelling.

dosage
T+0.00 LSD 150ug (blotter / tab)
T+2:40 MDMA 100mg (powder / crystals)
T+3:40 MDMA 50mg (powder / crystals)

I'll start with a little bit of background info. Since my first psychedelic experience 4 months ago with magic mushrooms I've been spending at least an hour each day thinking and reading about various mind-altering drugs.

The experience was simply so strong and profound that it's been impossible to ignore. Unfortunately my beautiful psychedelia-loving friend lives in another country, and at most I get to see them once every year. Where I live, at least around the people I know, we don't talk about drugs. Except for alcohol and weed most people think all drugs are dangerous and for people who's life are falling apart. But through various internet forums I made contact with another fellow mind-explorer, a girl I will refer to as Amy.

By coincidence she happened to live just a few hundred meters away from my apartment. So we met and chatted a few times. She's only had experience with MDMA and cannabis, but is very curious about LSD and mushrooms too.

So finally 4 months after my adventure with mush I finally got some LSD blotters and had the apartment to myself. I called Amy for a favor, and she arrived with her boyfriend Ryan to give me some MDMA. We chatted for a while about psychedelics, and it seemed like Amy was keen to join, but her boyfriend didn't want to. Too bad, I really did hope they wanted to join me.

After they left I had a hard time deciding whether to actually do it. I had consumed a small dose before to verify that it was the real deal, but this was my first full blotter. I open a notepad:

T+0:00 Ok lets do it. Here goes nothing...

T+0:43 The classic distortions are beginning to appear. Colors are brighter and the RGB components on my laptop screen are splitting. I'm enjoying simple visuals like breathing and morphing of static images. I have a rather anxious and speedy feeling. Although I'm not crying in an emotional way, my eyes are tearing up.

T+0:44 I'm laying in my bed listening to Röyksopp and Robyn's Monument. I'm so immersed in the music, observing every little instrument and part of it. It doesn't bother me at all that I'm listening to a low-quality laptop speaker, the music is recreated in my brain sounds great. I'm feeling the music. ++

T+0:48 The feeling of time is radically different. I can't understand that just a few minutes minute has passed. It seems like an eternity, but not in any bad way. An eternity filled with beautiful music.

T+0:50 My mind feels shaky, and there's a definitive body load. But it's tolerable, much better than my mushroom experience. Coming up fast. The experience has entered an +++ phase. Amazing.

T+0:56 After being a little bit anxious about tripping solo, I'm now 100% confident and positive that this trip will be great. I feel like I have good mental control of the trip. My exhaustive research into the subject has definitively been useful.

T+0:58 I'm experiencing and picturing every tone, every instrument and every word of the music. Great closed eyes visuals. Abstract patterns moving in the rythm of the music.

T+1:00 Log: 'I wonder whether this will be possible to read tomorrow, all letters on the screen seems completely mixed up' (yes it was surprisingly few mistakes the next day).

T+1:03 I'm getting up from bed, and just to check what my physical capabilities are at this point I do a few sets of pushups, feeling rather stupid. But the feeling afterwards was great, it seemed to amplify both the trip and positive feelings.

T+1:10 Walking around looking at various patterns and objects. The bathroom walls are particulary interesting, where three dimensional demonic shapes are breathing and flowing. Looking in the mirror I'm smiling when seeing how funny my eyes are huge and breathing.

T+1:17 Log: 'Back from outer space' (don't remember what that meant)

T+1:52 My memories from this part of the trip is kind of blurry. My log says: 'I have been thinking about writing down a number of experiences, but I'm unable to focus. Can't write properly'. It still feels like I'm coming up, and it's getting stronger.

T+1:54 Log: 'glitchrs in the matrix'. My viewframe is shaking, tearing apart and flickering. Feels like my head is going to explode. Not a scary feeling though, but I guess it could have been if I hadn't been prepared for stuff like this.

T+2:20 Took a shower, and while doing that I imagined myself as a lion in the jungle. Yeah I know that a lion in the jungle is not logical, but who cares right? ;) This was magical, I have always had an image of myself as weak, someone resourceful but not a leader. Now I was able to picture myself as an alpha-male, a leader.

Trying to see myself in this way usually makes me shameful. But why so? I'm the leader of the pack, the best me. I care and provide for my family. I got every right to feel this way, humility might be a virtue sometimes but not all the time.

I'm in a really good place in my life, so happy and perfect. And strong. There's no need to bring myself down. This was the opposite of ego-death. It felt like my ego-birth. Although knowing that we're all one, our individual identity is also essential.

T+2:40 Finished shower and back into bed. Log: 'yeah, and I just took some xtc, ain't no knowin what the side-effects will be.'

T+2:45 Just imagined the singularity and the beginning of the universe. The creation of matter and time itself, the hydrogen clouds clustering to stars turning into supernovas creating matter etc, going to galaxies planets. Pure magic, this place is so beautiful, and I'm so lucky to be alive and aware of my existence in this symphony of waves. I'm crying. We're now at ++++

This actually also scared me a bit. One part made me worry for a second that this fantasy could make the whole universe explode.

T+2:50 I feel a little bit of remorse about taking the MDMA, why change such a great experience. Well well, let's just roll with it.

T+2:53 Nah, regrets are useless. Log: 'mdma mystical enchanted mistress and temptress, violet and pink flowers everywhere ;)'

T+3:04 I'm seeing patterns and designs of strawberry, and dripping cherries. Great designs. I really enjoy this, it's been many years since I felt any inspiration for graphical design. It has a very feminine feeling, like it a lot.

T+3:07 Log: 'Oh yeah mandy's definitively kicking now. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM. My keyboard doesn't have enough MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM to describe the feeling'. I feel surprisingly clearheaded too. Listening to Robyns 'Do it again', and dancing in my bed while having what can only be called the most amazing body-orgasms possible!

No, I'm not 'having' an orgasm. I AM THE ORGASM. The hallucinations of the LSD are MIXED with the pure euphoria of the MDMA. This is impossible to explain. I have never felt anything like this. I'm crying and laughing and moving around in the bed simply amazed that this is possible.

T+3:10 It's not stopping, it's only getting stronger. Woooooooww oh shit. Waves of light and orgasms. Log: 'I don't think anyone has ever felt something so beautiful and amazing. This is the best bodily sensations that has ever been felt.' I know that's not logical, but that's exactly what it felt like at that point. Pure happiness, actually I'm crying of joy now while writing about it. What an amazing gift!

T+3:30 Still just as strong. From log: 'Remember you only get to experience this once!! You're remaining life must NOT be reduced to a hunt for another one! Take this and be thankful!!! Woooooooww'. It's so wonderful it's almost scares me. What will this do to me? But I deserve this! I also make a note to 'thank Amy for bringing me this magical MDMA'.

T+3:40 Also took another 50mg of MDMA to keep it going longer.

It just continues. Just pure pleasure, dancing with Lucy and Mandy.

T+5:00 I'm starting to come down. The hallucinations are actually almost all gone. Looking at the clock this is a bit earlier than expected. I guess this is a side effect of the LSD/MDMA combo. But I'm so satisfied.

T+11:00 Back to baseline, and very tired. I think I actually got to sleep 1-2 hours, but these hours were rather blurry. I want to sleep more, but it's very hard. But my face just has a big smile. I'm so satisfied and grateful.

Thank you wonderful Lucy and Mandy for a profound and amazing night.

Much love out to all my fellow psychonauts, you beautiful mind explorers. <3 <3 <3

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 103708
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 32
Published: Oct 1, 2019	Views: 3,860
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