Citation: Dfreeeee. "Topiramate Topiradont: An Experience with Topiramate (exp104052)". Erowid.org. Apr 15, 2021. erowid.org/exp/104052
||Pharms - Topiramate
Background: I am an 18 year old college student on summer break who doesn't do more than weed, alcohol and moderate prescription drugs. I went to work in in the morning, hit the gym around noon (fuck leg day) and was home by 2. I had the house to myself until later that night so I would usually get high as a kite, but I was on a t-break so I had to find something else to occupy myself in the meantime. After searching through my parents medicine cabinet I came across my mother's Topiramate, or Topamax.
Without any good logic I decided on 250 mg as my dosage. I downed it with some water and let it get to work. I hopped in the shower and by the time I was done I felt... weird. It was only 15 minutes later and I couldn't exactly tell what had changed, but I felt different. Not good, not bad... different.
Next I turned on my Xbox and started to play Fifa. I had the game on a very difficult setting. I immediately found the game incredibly frustrating. I also began to feel a bit nauseous. I paused the game to get something to eat. As I got back to the game - still frustrated - a fly landed on my food. I swear to god I have never been more pissed off at a fucking fly on my fucking food. Between losing at Fifa and the fly I have never been more frustrated in my entire life. Finally I paused the game, left the room, grabbed a magazine, waited for that fucking fly to stop flying and smashed that fucker to fucking pieces. I ended up getting killed in my Fifa game. But guess what? Topamax can act as an amnesiac an make you forget what happened. So I don't even remember the score of that Fifa game. It doesn't matter - it wasn't pretty.
I was still feeling pretty shitty after the game. I tried lying down in bed but I couldn't fall asleep. I felt somewhat anxious, as if I couldn't relax. It was definitely a bad feeling but I don't have words to describe it.
As I lay in bed I felt like I had, I just HAD to get out of my house. So I decided to take a walk outside into a wilderness trail. In my current mental state this wasn't one of my smartest ideas. I don't know the trails very well so of course I got lost after wandering for a good 20 minutes. Due to the amnesiac I forgot the way I came and I was truly screwed, until I found 4G signal and found my way back.
Now - 4 hours hours later- I still felt like shit. I just played GTA for another few hours until it wore off. I do not recommend Topamax for recreational use at all. It seriously sucked, a lot. Like it was really, really, bad. Really bad, really.
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