DOSE:	repeated	insufflated	Amphetamines	(powder / crystals)
	2 - 6 mg	oral	Pharms - Alprazolam	(pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT:

170 lb

First off let me say that benzos are wonderful drugs. That is, medically speaking.

Now comes the down side. I’ll begin with where my addiction began and try not to keep it too long.

I was at a point in my life when I was in a rut. I was depressed, and I didn’t want to go to a doctor for it because I was being stupid and too prideful. A friend introduced me to dry amphetamine sulphate powder. After a bump of 80mg of that stuff, I was hooked. I was energetic, talkative, optimistic, outgoing, and overall just motivated to get things done and improve my life as well as others. But that’s what speed does. Before I knew it, I was carrying the stuff around with me and railing multiple lines to chase the high that I had come to love. Life without speed was lackluster. I quit whenever the symptoms started to outweigh the benefits. I never couldn’t sleep at night. My heat rate and blood pressure became dangerously high (still is). I would be hot and sweaty constantly, and I couldn’t eat. You’re never hungry when you’re amped.

I knew I had to quit. And I was introduced to the answer. Something that would calm me down and make me relax at the end of the day. Something to help me sleep. This was Xanax bars.

It started out as something to help me come down from the speed. But when I got access to cheap bars (2mg pills, the highest dose), I started popping them like candy. I forgot about the speed. I didn’t care about the speed. I didn’t care about anything. That was the beauty of it. I was never nervous. I could talk confidently to any girl or any boss or professor or the dang president if I wanted to without a twinge of a second thought. But with a few bars of Xanax, I will go a whole day as a zombie and wake up the next day naked in my backyard with no recollection of what had happened. If I'm even remotely tired, I’ll pass out where I'm standing and sleep for two days. When combined with alcohol, I blackout and start fights. I have lost my friends, family, and girlfriend. My best friend stole my stash from me because he was trying to help me. He had complained that I act like a senile retard while on them. They do make me stupid, and I forget everything. The withdrawals were so bad I fought my own best to get them back. Xanas literally ruined my life. After having quit for a few months now, my anxiety is extremely worse than it ever was in the past.

Exp Year: 2012	ExpID: 104891
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 26
Published: Mar 2, 2026	Views: Not Supported
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