Citation: Rollking. "The Eternal Moment: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (exp105661)". Erowid.org. Apr 8, 2021. erowid.org/exp/105661
There are many moments in your life where certain decisions that you take affect you profoundly, trying salvia is definitely one of them. This is a short report on my first time experimenting with the drug.
One day, I went to my good friend's house that was right next to mine without expecting to do anything special. So my friend greets me by saying that his older brother scored some salvia. Now I've read a few things about salvia a few years ago and heard that it was even legal, so I didn't expect much. I walked into his room where it reaked from an awful smell that reminded me of burned plastic. His brother was just laying on his bed with his glazed eyes fixed on the wall and not even noticed that I had come in. The distasteful smell was accompanied by an awkward silence that filled the room for a few minutes until it was broken off by the sound of Ray's(my friend's big brother) laughter and giggles. He then turned to me and asked if I wanted try it. Not expecting much I hastily agreed. He rolled a fat joint for the three of us and told me to hold the smoke for as long as I could. As I was taking my 3rd puff I started noticing how fast my heartbeat was going, the first thing that occurred to me was that something had gone terribly wrong. The overwhelming feeling of isolation dawned on me. I felt that this room was the only thing left in the universe and that it was traveling at ultra super speed trying to find the rest of the forgotten world but in vain. We were lost and there was no hope of ever returning back. I tried to call my friend's name but the words just refused to leave my mouth. Somehow, I had accepted that. It was obvious that we were in two distinct worlds and that he was irrelevant to my trip. I started to get frightened as I was experiencing the gradual loss of grip on reality. I reached for my phone to look how much time had passed since we smoked and experienced the most horrific moment in my life. Time had ceased to exist, in some way it had stopped. Everything was frozen and pinned down to this moment which was eternal. It had always been now and it'll always remain that way. There is no escaping from eternal suffering. The image of infinity was broken by the sound of my friend calling me. As I looked at him everything started to get slower which was reassuring. I managed to mumble a few words which hardly expressed how fucked up I was but nonetheless, the regaining of the ability to speak was extremely comforting. Gradually, the room slowed down and was eventually still. My friend asked me if I wanted to eat something and in a somehow instictive way I nodded. We got up and went to the kitchen where we ate some leftover pizza. An unusual feeling of sheer bliss engulfed me and I was thankful for being alive. I felt as if I was reborn, something in my brain got rewired and allowed me to see and think about the world differently.
To this day I'm still unsure of how I feel about salvia. I don't know wether I like it or not, it is definitely a difficult experience that may be unpleasant. However, it certainly leaves you feeling as if you have stared death in the face and escaped it. One thing I'm certain of is that it is definitely not a fun drug and it is certainly not be taken lightly. It is not something that one does but rather something that does you and if one tries to impose myself on the trip or control it it'll slap me in the face and show one who's boss.
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