Citation: Isabella S. "Disaster: An Experience with 25I-NBOMe (exp106046)". Erowid.org. Dec 9, 2016. erowid.org/exp/106046
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Before this experience Iíve had experience with 25I-NBOMe once, drinking, cannabis, and hydrocodone.
The first time I took 25i it was during spring break 2015. I was laying in the sun with my friends who we will call G and T. We were trying to figure out what we were going do that night since everyone was partying for spring break. I had been wanting to try LSD for a while and G knew that so she offered to buy me some. Obviously I didnít want to pass that up so we went and bought it from our dealer and put it on our tongues around 8:00 PM. My first experience was wonderful, I saw the most beautiful visuals and I felt so free and happy.
After this successful night I told my friend K (who was out of town at this time) all about it. She said that when she got back in town in 2 days that she wanted to try it with us. We bought some from the same dealer. G and I took 1 Ĺ tabs each and K took one and T was going to babysit us. One thing to keep in mind about my bad trip is that I am diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I always feel like whenever I talk Iím annoying others and every semi-hateful comment my friends make is offensive to me. I also have anaphylaxis caused by sweating too much. My eyes and throat swell up and I use an epi pen.
G, T, and I took our tabs around 6:30 PM right after we ate dinner. I remember G saying some sarcastic comment to me that I took personally but I just shook it off and tried not to let it bother me. After our tabs dissolved we decided to go on a walk in her neighborhood. For some reason about 15 minutes after mine dissolved I started seeing things already. I started to tell my friends and G said that was impossible (since she thinks she knows everything about psychedelics) I swore on my life until they believed me. We started to lay down and I decided I wanted to go inside to get ready since we had guys coming over later. After I finished getting ready it was around 8:00 PM. We sat on her front porch and waited until they came. Me and K started getting intense visuals and were running around in the street enjoying ourselves and acting crazy. I didnít know it at the time but my body was about to go into anaphylactic shock since I was sweating and the 25i overheated my body. This was right as I started to peak.
Me and K decided to chill out and we sat with G and T again. As we were sitting there I started spitting words out of my mouth that didnít even make sense. I would say things that were completely off topic. It was about 8:30 and I was tripping balls. I see Tís face turn slowly towards me and say, ďYouíre so fucking annoying no one even wants you here just go kill yourself.Ē I didnít know if this had actually happened which made me more upset. (it obviously didnít really happen) I ran into the street and waited for a car to a hit me. I got frustrated because none of them would so I ran back to sit with them and decided to try to think of happy things and try my best. But no matter what I kept hearing her repeatedly saying that. I started getting even more mad because everyone was happy and I just kept hearing negative things about me.
I started getting even more mad because everyone was happy and I just kept hearing negative things about me.
I randomly started crying and saying I wanted to go inside so they agreed and took me in her room.
As we were walking upstairs I thought I heard her mom coughing up blood. I started crying and was begging someone to say that. It was an awful sound I cant describe how disturbing it was. K calmed me down and we made it up to Gís room. I looked in the mirror and noticed my eyes were almost swollen shut and I could barely breathe. At this point I was freaking out I was shrieking and saying I needed my epi pen. G went to get it but for some reason it looked like a knife so I kicked her and said to get away. I thought she was trying to kill me. It went back to normal and she tried again but this time I realized it would be unsafe if I mixed this with whatever I had taken. I kicked her again and started screaming hysterically. After about 5 minutes of T trying to calm me down G announced that the guys were on their way. I then again started crying because I looked awful and I didnít want them to see me like this. K and G ignored me and went outside to wait for them. T said she'd stay with me and she tried to calm me down by watching family guy. My mom then texted me randomly and asked how I was doing. This was around 9:00 and I thought I was caught and I couldnít bear the thought of her knowing I had done this. T took my phone and replied for me. I got up and started pulling my hair out and screaming on the ground. T called G to tell her what was happening. I thought I could hear Gís voice saying ďShe needs to chill no one even wants her here. Sheís being annoying holy shit.Ē
This made me so upset that I stole Tís phone and made her hang up. I asked T to just hang out with me in another room for when the guys got there but she didnít want to. The guys came upstairs and this is when I donít remember anything. My friends said that the whole entire night I was curled up in a corner sobbing and talking to myself. I finally fell asleep at 6 in the morning and when I woke up I felt emotionless. I felt so depressed like I had been changed forever and like no one even cared about what had happened to me. Then my mom came to pick me up and I just wanted to cry the whole time I was with her. I canít believe I did that and I just imagined how hurt she would be if she knew. Sheís always been there for me and I did that to her.
Itís been about a month and every night I canít sleep in the dark without freaking out and having a panic attack. I canít smoke either without freaking out. I just donít know what to do and I need help. My advice is to make sure you know what youíre taking and research it. I didnít even know what I was on and how it affected me. Good luck to all.
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