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Behind Closed Eyes, I Saw the Stars
5-MeO-DMT
Citation:   ComputerScienceMajor. "Behind Closed Eyes, I Saw the Stars: An Experience with 5-MeO-DMT (exp106438)". Erowid.org. Aug 2, 2017. erowid.org/exp/106438

 
DOSE:
9 mg vaporized 5-MeO-DMT (powder / crystals)
BODY WEIGHT: 136 lb
Backstory
I have taken salvia, mushrooms, 25i, LSD, AL-LAD, 4-HO-MIPT and MDMA before. Some taken more frequently than others. Only having one bad trip with a large dose of mushies after thinking I couldn’t have one. Anyway, this is an experience I prepared for. I had 25mg of the substance in possession for over a month. I tried to stay away from red meat, didn’t ejaculate for a week, and didn’t ingest THC for 3 days prior. I had several places in mind to do the substance. I held onto it until my fear of the drug turned into excitement. The day I chose to do it was the day I found out I had been selected by an employer to work. I was very excited about that and held onto those feelings up until the moment of inhalation.

Story
I walked up to one of my favorite secluded spots in the forest with my friend. He smoked weed while I prepared the spoon shaped dab tool with a small rock and larger one. I had been told that this would be roughly 8-10 mg. I dabbed the substance and the empty dab rig filled with 5-meo-dmt vapor. It tasted a tiny bit funky, but holding it in turned out to be easier than expected. I exhaled and felt an overwhelming feeling immediately.

I don’t know anything that feels this way, so trying to describe the feeling would be similar to trying to describe a new completely unique color. It was so overwhelming that I had to lie down. I felt like it might last forever and I wasn’t breathing well. I told myself that I was feeling the unbelievably potent effects of the drug and time will pass, even though it felt like it would not. I noticed that while my breathing was shallow, it felt sufficient. The trees that surrounded the clearing were now all in my widened vision as I looked up at the stars. I could see more around in more detail than I could normally mentally handle, but I had no idea who I was. I tried to lift my arms, but they felt heavy and I decided not too. I observed the stars, trees and plants around me simultaneously. I could also hear the animals around us nestling leaves in the woods and it made me smile. I told my friend I could see better and feel the inside of my teeth. I told him how the stars had incredible depth and I could focus on them to see some had individual movement. Any light movement was easily tracked.

I closed my eyes, but I still saw the stars. When I reopened them I tried to point out satellites to my friend, but he didn’t look hard enough. I told him it was beautiful and I was lucky to not hear any sirens. I tried to sit up, but was hit by a wave of nausea, so I sat back down. I saw two shooting stars, however I think I couldn’t miss any with my eyes open. When I heard flying bugs near my ears, I swooped up my hood with ease. I knew I was starting to come out of it when the world became less vivid.

Afterwords
This was the most intense feeling experience in my life, I felt lucky to have a good experience. I understand how terrible a bad trip could be, and how people might not return to normal behavior patterns after their trip. I feel more open with myself, and I am willing to be more open about private personal details.

Exp Year: 2015ExpID: 106438
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Aug 2, 2017Views: 1,361
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