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I Lay Down and Focus on God and Ego
Morning Glory
Citation:   Killinger. "I Lay Down and Focus on God and Ego: An Experience with Morning Glory (exp106466)". Erowid.org. Mar 12, 2020. erowid.org/exp/106466

 
DOSE:
450 - 700 seeds oral Morning Glory
BODY WEIGHT: 235 lb
Morning Glory Ego Death

I've done morning glory twice now once a little over a week ago and once last night. First time I ingested the 450 seeds.

0:20 finished with eating seeds ground up and mixed with ice cream. Nausea definitely setting in.

2:00 disappointed with trip and decide to take a two hour nap.

4:00 wake up and trip seems to be more intense but disappointing. No visuals like what I was expecting. Decide to waste time watching tv and etc.

7:00 nausea getting worse and feeling achey like I have the flu. Every time I focus on recreational values of trip I feel hardly any different than normal. But when I let my mind wander on morals, enlightenment, the EGO!, and 'God' I quickly go deep down the rabbit hole slowly but surely as trip progresses.

7:30 I'm seeing all the mess of my room the unvacuumed carpet, the strewn clothes, etc. as a result of a deep subconscious apathy towards myself. Feel like I'm in hell. Try to start cleaning myself and room but extremely weak. Feel as though vomiting will come eventually.
Feel like I'm in hell. Try to start cleaning myself and room but extremely weak. Feel as though vomiting will come eventually.
Continue to keep thinking about God and ego.

8:00 shaking and weak I can't manage to keep cleaning I lay down and focus on god and ego far more intensely.
9:00 vomit at climax of trip. Feel better physically but trip is rapidly dropping to a baseline level and feel like I care about myself and others more. My face literally looks different (happier) and my smile seems bigger than usual. Looks like I shaved ten years off face.
9:30 repeatedly watching ego scenes from Revolver. Writing poetry. Drawing pictures. Praying. Feel very enlightened.

2nd time I take 700 seeds and throw up in an hour and strengthening trip again dies down and is crappy.



Exp Year: 2015ExpID: 106466
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Mar 12, 2020Views: 662
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