DOSE:	1 hit	oral	1B-LSD	(blotter / tab)
	repeated	inhaled	Nitrous Oxide	(gas)
		vaporized	Cannabis

BODY WEIGHT:

90 lb

After getting to know LSD and Marijuana quite well, and enjoying their interactions together I decided to try Nitrous bulbs along for the ride. I had enjoyed them before the acid days and after hearing that they too interact with LSD, I decided to try the combination for myself.

I have come to realize that I have quite an addictive personality so I avoid highly addictive drugs because I know they would kill me, or I would not be able to stop. So Nitrous did not ring any alarm bells when I researched it.

This was a period that I look back to fondly, like a time when psychedelic substances inspire in a way that is very hard to reach in day to day life. Like being in love, sort of. I would go down to my fishing shack by the Murrumbidgee, take some good LSD, wait until the trip started peaking, have some super hash (produced ironically as condensate byproduct inside [my] Vaporizer!), and BANG!!

The walls of the room would ripple, my heart would feel like it was filling with hope and promise and the gumtrees outside were the most beautiful things I have ever seen! The connection to nature was complete. I was(are)nature and vise-versa. In the light of my head torch at night the tree trunks glistened silver, gold, yellow, orange and green. The patterns were(are)stunning.

Then, I would take some Nitrous oxide via whipped cream bulbs! KABOOOM!!! The feeling of being one with the sunset and starry night was incredible..i.ts like I was flying through space and being everywhere at once and completely content. The mossy rocks, trees and bushes were twirling like steam, It was a mind orgasm. What a rush, I began spending hours writing song lyrics and poetry until the sun came up and I felt I understood the cosmos and our place in it more that with just LSD and Pot.

Unfortunately I soon found myself having to always include the bulbs on my LSD excursions. This seemed awesome at first, although it slowly dawned on my that this was unsustainable. I suspect that Nitrous Oxide via whipped cream dispensers is somewhat more harmful and addictive than my research suggested.

I soon found myself being draw into an addiction to bulbs, at one point I ordered 500 online and they came in a day! They were gone in a week! I was loving the rush, listening to music and even hallucinating .. without LSD!

Then finally, after the 500 batch and then some, I took a trip and started bulbing, only to find I felt like an Ice addict or something. Intensified by the LSD I could feel the physical harm the continued use of the bulbs was doing, and my emotions were becoming negative, as if I had reached a point of no return. I kept inhaling only to find myself spiraling into fierce addiction , at that point I understood what it truly felt like to be utterly under the spell of a drug, I had to finish them off there and then. I felt horrible. Like I was a slave to something I once loved..

I then wrote this poem/song. Its still in development.

V1

Flying fiery through the old forest
Burning down into the ancient folds
Digging deeper till the barrow bleeds
Finding only a child's lonely scold

Melting gracefully into the moss
The clouds form like magic wands
To rejoin her womb melts all loss
Now love as one with all the lands

Chorus

Poly ate all the crackers
She's drowning at the rivers cross
Sinking down held tight by shackles
One more breath before all is lost

Minds melted fast back into stars
Burning skies send shivers down
A single soul could stray so far
Don't slip now you might just drown

V2

Pushing past the downward tunnel
Only time could send me there
I won't (let me) go to the devil
It's just the darn cost of the fare

Crushing darkness is a holy creed
Ones mind it is the oceans free
Open the doors to quench the need
And Transcend the egos push to lead

To love oneself is to love a dark heart
There's no other way back home
Just like the ancient wise old lark
His third eyes feels a wise soul grow

I have since stopped using the bulbs, not the LSD and Pot, I can manage that. So be careful with Nitrous, its amazing but very potent too.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 106685
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 45
Published: May 17, 2019	Views: 3,314
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