DOSE: T+ 0:00	5 hits	oral	LSD	(blotter / tab)
T+ 0:00		vaporized	Cannabis	(extract)
T+ 2:00	120 mg	oral	MDMA
T+ 0:00	repeated	smoked	DMT

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

This is a report of the most life changing spiritual event I have ever experienced in my entire life. I was in a decent mood that day and decided to try my first combination of LSDMT (LSD+DMT) later in the evening. I had some decent tabs that I had already used a few times before with my friend and have already used DMT a few times before. However none of my DMT trips before even compare to the sheer unimaginable love and joy I had experienced on this breakthrough.

I started one night at around 2:20 pm dropped 5 tabs of LSD which was about 500 micrograms. As I came up I smoked a few dab rig hits and started experiencing the typical fractal imagery I would experience on this dose. At around the two hour mark at 4:30 pm I decided to add MDMA to my trip to candyflip. As I came up on the molly I started to reach my peak of my trip and would see these cubical shapes with intricate dragon designs etched into the cubes.

At some certain point the acid started to become very introspective looking back on my life and the decisions I have made most of them were good but, I was still uncertain on my gender identity as I have felt “different” from most guys. This worried me however as if I would tell my family and some of my close friends that I’m transgendered that I wouldn’t be in touch with some of them anymore. This is when I started to trip out I was walking around outside in the wash at the time and would see shadow like snakes forming out of the shadows on the trees. I would also keep seeing trees and vines that seemed to block my way most of the time walking around. I kept thinking to myself of my identity and who I was then when a plane flew by and flashed a light towards me I remembered that I was going to smoke some of the DMT during my trip.

This is when things started to become very odd. It only took me around 5 seconds or so after exhaling one big hit where I was instantly transported to a weird cartoon like universe with shapes in the form of a Q-bert game with all these spindly lines with vast colors cascading down these shapes like a waterfall. After this which seemed to be the waiting room I began to hear weird like alien voices talking in my head asking if I was dead however the other alien knew I had just left my body and was in a stasis like state.

After this I entered the most vast cosmic space I have ever seen at this point it was hard to remember some of my trip as it felt as if I was gone for a month's time in the span of 20 minutes. However these goddess like alien beings seemed to be guiding me and answered the questions I needed to know. They told me spiritually I am a woman and it doesn’t matter the consequences I have to take to make myself happy. I then realized it doesn’t matter what people think of me only what I think of myself and how I am going to be happy. I realized this after being reborn as a girl through a cosmic like womb similar to the 2001 space odyssey. I had never felt happier during this time so I finally had my answer of what I needed to do as I had always wondered if changing sex would actually make me happy. After this I began to travel between these yellow glowing cosmic lines to other cosmic galaxies in this huge universe and began to talk to other beings with more questions. Most of these I can’t remember as if my brain is protecting me from answers we cannot know while we were alive.

However I found closure when I was talking to the spirit of my dead dog Daisy. I felt connected through Lucky my friend's dog after snapping back into reality temporarily and went to pet her I returned to the place where my dogs soul was. I realized that she was accidentally fed too much chicken bones at one time that had ripped her insides. I began to cry again remembering mourning the loss of my dog and so did Lucky as if she felt the connection I made but, at the same time I had never felt so spiritually connected with the universe. My dog had told me to stay strong and to never give up hope and not to worry that it wasn't my fault that she had died since it was her own stupidity for eating a large chicken bone.

I felt as if the whole life in the universe was connected together in this place. I am sure there is an afterlife as DMT made me feel as if all life is connected together in a special way giving me a sense of peace knowing that death isn't the end. To me it seems almost exactly like Terence Mckenna said that life is a preparation for a transition to another dimension this so called network of love, light and information. These experiences just seem too confounding for the brain to produce it since we can't even retain all of the information thrown at us. I had needed a trip like this to know the answers I wanted. DMT is a truly powerful drug and gave me the time span of months of thinking in order to get these answers I needed that could only be truly found in my subconscious. I hope to someday possibly try to get into the field of stem cell research or find a way for trans-gendered people to transition easier or hopefully have kids of their own and possibly fully preventing them from the turmoil and despair I have felt. If some animals in nature such as frogs can reverse genders then hopefully humans can too.

Exp Year: 2014	ExpID: 106860
Gender: Not Specified
Age at time of experience: 21
Published: Feb 27, 2023	Views: 450
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