Citation: LoveIsTheAnswer. "High Velocity Shapes, Colors, and Love: An Experience with MDA & DMT (exp106916)". Erowid.org. Feb 24, 2020. erowid.org/exp/106916
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First Time Rolling and Exploring Hyperspace
Preface: I have a longtime friend with access to high quality substances, the opportunity to roll for my first time with him and another friend finally came about so I gladly jumped on the opportunity.
0:00 - Chad and I arrive at Albert's house then spend some time chatting with him and his wife Allison for a bit getting comfortable and preparing for our journey then eventually make our way around to measuring out 85mg of some very pure MDA for each person (wife excluded) and ingesting it via capsule.
0:15 - Chad, Albert and I make our way over to a public park then start walking around taking a stroll and talking a bit while waiting for the effects to take hold.
0:30 - We're still walking around the park and I start to feel a faint feeling difficult to place my finger on. Almost like some nervous butterflies but with a bit of mild euphoria and childlike giddiness.
0:45 - I'm really starting to feel it and we all sit down and take a break from walking for a few moments. I feel completely at peace and lost myself staring into a beautiful pastel sky as if I was in a watercolor painting. I've had numerous experiences with LSD/Psilocybin and noticed a fair bit of visual enhancement but different and more subtle than what I've noticed on other psychedelics.
1:00 - It was a warm/humid afternoon and we had walked a decent bit but wow I really needed some water, I felt lots of strong and unfamiliar bodily sensations and for a few moments was unsure on if things were beginning to go badly for me as I'm not used to stimulants. We made our way to a water fountain and I drank lots of refreshing water which put me at ease.
1:15 - We were then driven to another park nearby by a designated driver and walked around then went and sat on a dock on a serene river. We all sat for a while looking at the water and talked about life, comparing it to being just a drop of water in an endless current. I felt completely at peace and remember briefly thinking to myself that if I were to die at that moment I would be happy. I was with two of the most loving and compassionate people I've had the pleasure of knowing and felt blessed to have had the chance to interact with them.
1:45 - It was time to make our way back home, on the car ride back I sat in the back seat of the car with the windows down and my face propped next to the window. I was completely floored and felt unable to move but in a state of pure relaxing bliss as a dog with it's head out the window just soaking in this divine sensory experience.
2:00 - We made it back and proceeded to hang out in the living room together with some good music on while drinking water to rehydrate and relax a bit. We all talked some more and I experienced an overwhelming feeling of love and compassion for my dear friends.
2:30 - The topic of DMT randomly got brought up in conversation and Albert asked if I was up to it, I was in a fantastic relaxed mood and figured now is an ideal time. Him and Chad have both experienced it numerous times, I had only been able to try it once but never broke through.
2:45 - Albert packed a bong with a little bit of cannabis and a large scoop of DMT dumped in the middle with another thin layer of cannabis on the top. I am unsure of the amount in the bong but it was likely upwards of 100mg, there was no way I'd be able to use it all but he wanted to destroy me. I was still a little nervous at this point so he just sat the prepared bong on the table as we all talked and relaxed a bit longer until I was ready.
3:30 - I finally decided I was ready and that I fully wanted to experience for myself. We dimmed the lights, changed the playlist to some more relaxing music and I positioned myself reclined back on the couch then shut my eyes to breath and relax for a moment. Albert came over and kneeled down next to me with the bong and instructed me that I would inhale multiple hits with the first two being very small just to tickle my throat with the harsh smoke.
3:35 - I put the bong to my lips and began to inhale as Albert slowly lit the bong and pulled the slide resulting in a miniscule hit and I held it for around 15sec then exhaled and leaned down to repeat the process with a slightly larger one. On the third hit he had lit it a lot more and as he pulled it I felt a burn and was in a confused daze with an unfamiliar bodily sensation. I went down for the fourth and final hit in which he torched it and before he pulled the slide I remember feeling as if my body were in a race car traveling 200mph and thinking 'oh god' right before he pulled the slide. Once I cleared the fully milked bong I immediately coughed up a long and remember reaching for my water bottle but after a second just let go and leaned back as I closed my eyes.
3:35 -> 3:50ish - I blasted off vertically at high velocity through a tunnel of impossible shapes and vivid colors into another dimension. Once I had seemingly reached my destination I saw a beautiful woman/angel draped in a shining gold gown and headdress come up to me and smile reaching out her hand holding a glowing jewel up to show me. As this jewel got close to me it exploded and I entered it and saw everything that ever was, with different beings dancing and showing me this divine creation. I watched myself get born, grow old, and eventually die then become one with everything else. Time felt endless and this part of the experience is impossible to accurately put into words.
3:50 - I slowly came back and felt drowsy as if I was waking up from a long nap, with Albert and Chad intently staring at me waiting for me to respond.
4:00 - We briefly chatted for a few moments until Chad was ready for his DMT dose, then sat there in silence as he laid there. I was trying to interpret what had just happened to me, and thought a lot about death and love.
4:30 - I was still a bit confused trying to figure our what happened as we all talked but I wasn't paying much attention since I was completely overwhelmed by what I had just experienced during the DMT trip.
5:30 - Chad and I said our farewells to Albert for the evening to go home and get some sleep for the night.
6:00 - We made it home and I went upstairs to lay down for bed but restlessly tossed and turned for a couple hours before falling asleep thinking about the DMT trip and likely still stimulated from the MDA.
TLDR: MDA was incredible, but has nothing on DMT which I am still experiencing the afterglow of several weeks later. I discovered that the meaning of life is simply love...
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