DOSE: T+ 0:00	80 mg	oral	MDMA	(capsule)
T+ 1:00	50 mg	oral	MDMA	(capsule)

BODY WEIGHT:

65 kg

I just wanted to contribute to the discussion as to how we feel in the days that follow MDMA ingestion and generally the pattern of use.

After taking MDMA for the first time (deliberately in a non-party setting, but seeking a therapeutical effect) I was totally shocked by the potency of the substance. I knew I do not want to take it more often than once in 3 weeks and I would have never risked taking more than my regular 80-100 mg plus a supplement of 50 mg an hour after the initial dose to make the comedown softer.

So this is what I have been doing for about a year now and I have only noticed one change since I started - I do not experience negative physical symptoms like pain in the arms, dry mouth and irritated throat any more. They disappeared after the third session. Otherwise I always feel quite bad during a couple of hours directly after comedown, but elevated, energized and almost too active for about 5-6 days after ingestion. After that comes the next stage, a week of feeling slightly depressed and most importantly, being kind of indifferent or even mean towards people around me, which is a great contrast to my feelings before this second week. So I would actually very much like to know if one of the effects of MDMA in the long run can be a gradual loss of empathy, which frightens me. This effect was however much more noticeable when I once was tempted to only make a two-week pause between the sessions, so I guess for me 3 weeks is the optimal spacing.

In any case, one of the reasons I share this is because I want to warn those who are not using MDMA in a way they can benefit from. Do not abuse this magical substance. Do not mistake it for being a party dope. It is a gift from gods to us humans that we must use consciously to explore ourselves and become better versions of ourselves by resolving our issues. If we all become responsible users, maybe one day we will see MDMA become legal again and available for those who realize the positive potential this substance has.

Exp Year: 2015	ExpID: 107466
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 30
Published: May 31, 2017	Views: 1,440
[ View PDF (to print) ] [ View LaTeX (for geeks) ] [ Swap Dark/Light ]
MDMA (3) : Hangover / Days After (46), Therapeutic Intent or Outcome (49), Retrospective / Summary (11), Unknown Context (20)