DOSE:

repeated

inhaled

Inhalants

BODY WEIGHT:

83 kg

[Erowid Note: Our understanding of the literature is that there is no such thing as safe recreational use of volatile solvents, aerosols and other street inhalants : their psychoactive effects are inseparable from nerve and organ damage. We have chosen to include these reports to help document the real world use of inhalants, but their inclusion is not intended to imply that they are anything but dangerous.] I personally haven't tried a lot of mind-altering Substances except the usual Culprit: Alcohol. But I started reading Articles about Drugs and I wanted to defy the general stance against Drugs. I think the only way to find out if Drugs are bad or not, is by trying them. This is not a mentality I would recommend though, since it can lead to dangerous experiences.

Recently I asked someone from school whom I knew to take Cannabis if I could come with him and try it out. I took care of a comfortable set and setting, bringing along one of my personal friends. Nothing really happened to me, except some mild feelings of happiness. Nothing I would call a 'trip'.

So I read online about ways to experience psychedelic trips, but sadly most of them were hard to get, or a little bit on the expensive side. In my youthful stupidity I finally came to inhalants, and saw that Butane was one which was both accessible and kind of natural, unlike deodorants and such which have all sorts of chemicals.

So one Morning I decided to head to the garage to get a can of lighter refill, pure Butane. I thought the best way to take it would be by using a balloon, the same way people inhale N2O or laughing Gas. So I put the red adapter part on top of the can, put one of those valve type things on top over which I spanned a balloon opening. It was a little bit messy, but it did the job. I was filling the balloon with some gas. I’d say the balloon was about 3 breaths large, or 50% before it would've popped. I took a deep Breath and exhaled into the balloon, then I inhaled, and exhaled and on and on and on.

After the first couple Breaths I didn’t feel that much. Breath 5-6 and I felt really warm, but that warmth was different from the heat one would experience by being exposed to the sun. The heat felt very artificial.

Breath 8-9 made my lips go numb. It didn't feel as If I was actively blowing in and out of the balloon, but I was controlling a different body to do so. Everything had a delay to it.

Breath 10-11 made my ears go 'Vuuhm vuuu vuuuhm vuuuh'. It’s hard to explain but It sounded very 'out of this world'. My Vision started to become crystallized, like when I watch some sort of optical Illusion Video on YouTube.

After that I couldn’t really keep track of my Breaths, and I can only vaguely remember what happened. I forgot what reality I was in and I couldn’t really identify myself anymore. It felt as if I lost my physical Body. At first I saw Red Dots all over my peripheral Vision, then Green ones appeared and I felt as if multiple realities were clashing against each other. Yellow Dots appeared and for some reason that completely blew my mind. I thought I could travel through Space and Time, and 'matter' didn’t make sense to me. I was feeling a little... dumb you could say. All this happened in about 1-2 minutes, but it felt like eternity. Everything felt as if I had seen it before, Deja vu over and over and over again.

Slowly my senses returned. The 3 colored dimensions reformed themselves to my normal vision, albeit a little blurry at that. The Vuhm Vuhm sounds started to fade away and I was feeling 'normal' right after that happened. I kind of sat there and looked at a wall, trying to process what just happened.

This way my experience, and from what I've read here everyone experiences something different. I can't recommend inhalants, as the experience was very frightening, although I would lie if I said I didn’t somewhat enjoy it. I don’t know if I experienced my brain melting away or just some insanely strong hallucinations.

I may try it again in the future, but I will definitely try having a friend with me. I think that would’ve helped a lot with the feelings of terror I was experiencing.

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 107701
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Nov 21, 2017	Views: 3,020
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