Life and Death at Home
Huasca Brew (M. tenuiflora & B. caapi)
by Yag
Citation:   Yag. "Life and Death at Home: An Experience with Huasca Brew (M. tenuiflora & B. caapi) (exp107769)". Erowid.org. Jan 3, 2020. erowid.org/exp/107769

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
150 ml oral Huasca Brew (tea)
  T+ 1:00 50 ml oral Huasca Brew (tea)

BODY WEIGHT: 70 kg


So, a fast introduction: I had a 1 week-old bottle containing some 500ml (I suppose) of Banisteriopsis caapi (ayahuasca vine) mixed with a Psychotria spp. that gave almost no DMT to the brew. One week after that I had MHRB and brewed 40-50g four times with water and mixed it with the caapi brew. Drank 50ml, felt seriousness and almost puked, but nothing happened. I already have more than a year of constant experience with common ayahuasca and weed.
I already have more than a year of constant experience with common ayahuasca and weed.


One day later I decided to drink 150ml of the jurema brew.

T+0:00 (17:15): Drank 150ml of jurema, tasted bad, but not as disgusting as ayahuasca (Chacrona + Caapi).

T+0:30: Felt a little nauseated.

T+1:00: I was starting to believe that it was a big failure, I sat on a small tree trunk I have on my balcony and started to stare at my reflection in my glass door. Just like in those optical illusions some features of my face started to disappear, sometimes my eyes would vanish, or my whole face would do so, and my peripheral vision was shaking in multiple colors, I felt the need to take another small dose.

And so I did, I drank 50ml and went upstairs to my room and started to play the maracá (a rattle), the trance started, I was gathering information directly through my brain, like I was connected to God's google drive. My vision was much better, and I could see the colors behind the colors, like I saw a shade of blue and managed to see purple behind it, my vision was starting to shake a little bit, sometimes got blurried like an impressionist painting.

T+1:30 (I suppose): I was watching my plants in my balcony and was very affected by the jurema, I was understanding things about life and the concept of 'Whole', I met God, hacked the ultimate computer that started the creation of Everything, saw the codes of the matrix. But then I felt I was wasting too much energy just 'tripping', so I decided to concentrate that energy meditating, I had beautiful CEV of some strange geometric formations bilaterally simetric in shades of black, red, orange , yellow and green, it felt like a ritual settlement.

T+2:00: I opened my eyes and went to the balcony again, in that moment I tried to channel an entity called 'Preto Velho', but he resisted bravely, I almost did it (I never chanelled before), suddenly, the trance stopped, like jurema came to me and said 'okay, it's over'. I was still altered, but not in a deep trance state, I went downstairs and walked through some of my plants and I was thinking about the theme of this trance, 'Life', and then I walked upon a dead plant and though 'If this trance was about life, the next one will be about death'. I went on cycling.

T+3:00: I was eating gnocchi after a relaxing cycling experience, and suddenly another trance started, it was getting dark outside (the Sun had just set) and my living room was in shades of blue/green and orange/yellow, I was starting to absorb information from the outer regions of divine consciousness again, it was beautiful, I laughed alot and my vision was kind-of replicating and I was staring at my black cat hunting insects or something alike and it was awesome, magical. I approached him and we sat in front of the house's front door (from the inside), in that moment I looked at the door of a closet (made of wood) and saw the face of a very old indian that was getting near me to explain about misteries, and so he did. I got inside a trance about reality, life/death, misteries, occult, moist dark things, but I wasn't frightened, I was amazed by all the information I was receiving about darkness (the presence of my black cat really helped, it was like he was experiencing the same).

In some part of this trance I understood the energy of myself, personally, like the specific energy that summarizes what I am
I understood the energy of myself, personally, like the specific energy that summarizes what I am
, and as I saw myself as a whole I felt that my end was near. I remembered I had a party to attend (a friend's birthday), but I felt that if I went there, I would die on the way, and I felt fear, “How can I die now?” and then I started questioning myself, why do I fear death? What makes me prefer being alive? Before receiving the answer, the trance stopped just like the other one, suddenly.

T+4:00: The trance was gone, I still refused to walk to my friend's party, I explained the situation and he gave me a car ride. Everything is fine since.

Exp Year: 2016ExpID: 107769
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 18 
Published: Jan 3, 2020Views: 668
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