Citation: Aaron. "How I Am Healing by Microdosing: An Experience with LSD (exp107822)". Erowid.org. Feb 13, 2016. erowid.org/exp/107822
My name is Aaron [ ] and I've had a calling to the study of the medicinal properties of psychedelic substances. I feel it is necessary that I share this report with as many people as I can in an effort to redeem the late chemist Albert Hofmann. As a result of my recent experiences (this one being the second most responsible) I have developed a religious or spiritual standing on the nature of this matter of psychedelics and truly believe that there are a number of gifted substances that Humankind cannot do without.
Included is a personal history which may be relevant to the experience. This is written in hopes of provoking greater and more professional research into the use of sub-threshold doses of various substances. In this case I am reporting the effects of MicroDosing LSD at approximately 12.5 micrograms which is performed by slicing blotter tabs (said to contain 100 micrograms LSD) into eighths and administering orally on a daily basis in the early afternoon.
A brief history of myself: Since I was a child I've been diagnosed with a variety of disorders and have undergone an even greater number of treatments all of which failed to provide any lasting benefit. These range from ADD, Depression, Anxiety, Bipolar along with many other symptoms being undiagnosed. Most of these drugs have had no effect or resulted in undesirable effects which led to their discontinuation. I've generally lost all respect for the pharmaceutical industry and found myself succumb to these issues with no hope of their mitigation.
At times I found myself abusing drugs like Ecstasy, Opiates, Cannabis, Tobacco and Alcohol as an excuse to escape my mundane reality and boredom. These along with my preexisting conditions made for a very out-of-whack state of being for many years where I tried to abstain from further self-destruction. After that phase of my life I found a spiritual revelation which only deepened my sorrows as I became more aware of the world and my place in it seemed to become fruitless. Needless to say I was lost.
In the past few years I sought out medical help and these problems only worsened. My most recent trial of prescriptions led me to a breaking point where I developed Complex Migraines which would resemble a stroke or seizures of sorts. The notion that no doctor could help me was later affirmed by follow-up video/EEG tests, during which I had episodes, that showed no abnormal behavior. MRI and CT scans turned up no evidence either!
Not even two days later from my hospital release was I presented an opportunity to experiment with Psilocybin-containing mushrooms. I was told they could help those suffering from Cluster Headaches and Migraines. The result was fantastic! With all the characteristics of one who is having a stroke, I was revitalized as a youthful and fit body from a single morsel of the fungi. This was something I had to continually consume at the onset of any episode. The next few weeks showed a decrease in frequency, intensity, and persistence in my 'attacks'. Fortunately as my supply was nearing its end my attacks had vanished entirely!
At the time of this writing it has been months since I've consumed the psychedelic fungi and I haven't had an episode since! That isn't to say I haven't felt unwell at times due to anxiety. It is this encounter with this truly magical substance that has encouraged me to spread the word of sub-threshold dosing being a cure for what I went through. It has encouraged me to delve into the research of substances and their unconventional applications.
Again, my problems got the best of me and was in a depressive state for a while. Irritability became my demon and I struggled with my levels of energy and desire. Creativity was a stranger and boredom became my only comfort. All these things yet I didn't actually perceive they were present within me. It was all so subtle that I didn't notice how depressed I was until the next miracle found me.
I've taken the drug LSD many times before for fun and had been the catalyst for my previously mentioned spiritual revelation. I was recently invited to purchase some LSD and was already interested in the substance being used in sub-threshold experimentation. After having some fun with it I decided to do a full-on documented self-study. I let myself reset for about a week and then began MicroDosing LSD on January 17, 2016.
At the time of this writing I am 9 days into my study and have some truly amazing results. I will describe them as best I can:
Appreciation: A very general and possibly encompassing sense of appreciation for all things. All people seem more important, all colors more alive, all sounds have their beauty, all the dingy, dirty, gross things have their place, etc. Jokes that weren't funny have some appeal now. Far easier to appreciate different perspectives for what they are and what their foundations are.
Baselines: The general base level for a variety of traits have been raised to what I would consider 'natural'. A tremendous improvement from my original baselines!
Mood/behavior/emotions: Mood is stabilized and behavior is less based on emotions. Any negative feelings such as anger or sadness are present but proceed to self-resolve. Compared to my original state, this is really amazing; because the feelings would linger and grow to frightening levels. Far more natural patience and empathy. Great sense of humor; more humble to my own shortcomings.
Socialization: A new desire to interact with others which is now uplifting instead of anxiety-inducing. Able to join in conversations or initiate them with ease. Able to empathize with people in a way that I can better understand their social behavior in a non-judgmental way.
Creativity/problem solving: Normally I would require some external source for inspiration when working on my artistic hobbies. Since dosing I find inspiration from within. Any obstacles or problems that come to me are very easy to mitigate.
Energy: I no longer require chemicals to forcibly raise my energy. Unlike caffeine, I am able to call upon my energy store as needed and can easily settle afterwards. There is no feeling of being stimulated like most drugs cause, for example jitters and dry mouth.
Focus/attention: A greater length for holding thoughts especially while talking. Learning and recalling things more quickly and to greater accuracy. Any deterrents or distractions have less of an impact on my train of thought and focus.
Self-limitations/inhibitions: More accepting of myself and the inner chatter that normally defines what is worth acting on or not has essentially shut up to allow more fluent creativity in artistic endeavors, solving problems, and in socializing with others.
Psychedelic effects: Diminishing effects over the days of the fun/scary effects such as visual/auditory changes and psychological alterations.
Perversion: Sexual attraction is no longer overly prominent and a greater sense of androgyny exists. Able to be free from checking out women's breasts and butts all the time as habitual.
Addiction: My desire for tobacco use is severely reduced and cravings aren't so dreadful as to force my hand. Sexual activities don't overrun my thoughts.
Desire to alter the mind: I no longer have frequent or prominent wishes to get high on Cannabis and only wish to use it sparingly. I don't feel a need to drink alcohol when bored.
No medication I've been prescribed was intended to do all of these things. No medication I've taken has had this level of effectiveness without any detrimental effects. Not a single pill I have swallowed has made me feel like anything about me was perfect. Nothing can even come close to what LSD has done for me.
As this is only 9 days worth of analyzing my ongoing experience I cannot conclude how these effects will last and what will happen if I abruptly discontinue the use. I wish I could just have my God-given prescription for life, but I feel it necessary to at some point bring this to an end for the aforementioned concerns.
I find it criminal to prevent myself, and others sharing these troubles, from the responsible use of such a blissful substance. I do agree that it needs to be controlled but to outlaw this is absolutely insane and is a truly evil act in the name of what potentials exist in science, society and its progress. It is a hindrance to humanity as a whole to allow this revolutionary chemical to be branded as a problem needing suppression at the level we see today.
The day the responsible, honest, educated, and purposeful usage of this compound is permitted to those who wish to do good in the world is the day that humanity will boldly step into a real Golden Age.
I will hold my beliefs and the wealth of evidence from many persons/studies against any legal repercussions that may result from sharing this data and am willing to put myself in such a position because I believe anonymity will only make this highly controversial topic even less approachable.
I will happily work with parties interested in my experience for the purpose of enlightening the world to the medicinal and spiritual/religious if I can determine their sincerity.
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