Citation: Crash. "On the Beach: An Experience with 4-AcO-DMT (exp108171)". Erowid.org. Mar 15, 2018. erowid.org/exp/108171
This trip report is a description of my first experience with 4-Acetoxy-DMT (which I will just call 4-aco-dmt), this is my first experience with psychedelics in general. A couple months before the events described here I had becomes very interested in psychedelics. I had almost no experience with drugs of any sort other than alcohol and prescription opiates, so psychedelics struck me as being very exotic and interesting. After visiting several forums, I learned about research chemicals, and I was told that 4-aco-dmt was an enjoyable substance, so, I went ahead and purchased a small amount. After this I continued reading advice/experiences on the internet and started to make some preparations.
I collected music that I liked and arranged it into a playlist that I could listen to during the comeup and the trip itself. I also went around collecting some “trippy” images that I thought I might enjoy looking at and some videos that I thought would be cool (Specifically the TV show “Off the Air.”) To be honest, I was very nervous about my first trip. I decided that I would go for a walk along the beach near my house during the experience. I didn’t have anyone who could trip sit for me, and I wasn’t entirely sure exactly how lucid I would be while I was tripping. Still, I was set on doing it anyway.
Now for the first trip itself.
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It was a Friday night, and the weather was very pleasant (I had settled on night time because I was worried about going outside during the day while tripping.) I sat down at my computer desk and took out the 100mg baggie I had acquired. At the time I did not have a scale capable of measuring milligrams, so I did my best to divide the powder into five even lines for a 20mg dosage. I scraped the drug into a small and thin slice of cheese, balled it up, and then swallowed it whole as if it were a pill. I was extremely nervous, my hands were shaking and my heart was racing. I turned on the playlist I had arranged and sat back breathing deeply to calm myself down.
My stomach was empty, so I started to really feel effects after about twenty minutes. I was hit by a wave of euphoria and began laughing for no particular reason. All the anxiety I had previously felt was gone, and I just felt wonderful. I looked around my room and saw that the white door to my closet was now tinted a greenish color, which I found very funny. After some time, I began to notice slight tracers from my hands moving, and decided it was time to go out. I got up, went to the door, and opened it, which made me feel proud of myself for properly operating a doorknob. I walked down the stairs and stopped to pat my dog, all of which made me feel very good about everything in general. I was feeling very happy and content, like all was right with the world.
I opened the front door and immediately noticed that everything was very bright, despite the fact that it was around 9:30pm. Street lights seemed much brighter than normal, and the glow of the lights over the city were also very bright. The sky was beautiful. I went to the beach and stood on the sand marveling at the ocean and the sky. It seemed like every time I looked back at the sky the clouds and the glow from the city lights had changed color. The stars in the sky seemed to be moving around and I was amazed at how...large the sky as a whole was. I was laughing uncontrollably, and I was aware that there was a young couple sitting on the beach wall about 40 yards away. I didn’t really care at the time, even though I felt like they were watching me. I heard the girl laugh, which made me laugh even harder. At the time I believed she was laughing for a very long time, and the sound was very loud, as if she was standing right next to me. I estimate that this went on for about 30 minutes. My perception of time was pretty warped, and it felt like a much shorter period of time.
I suddenly decided that I wanted to run. There’s a spot on the beach where the beach and the street diverge so street level is much higher up, so the beach wall is about ten feet tall.
I would estimate that I was probably about 150 yards away from there at the time. I started running as fast as I could towards that area, and I felt amazing. I felt like I was moving at an incredibly high speed. The beach seemed to stretch on forever in front of me, and I started to wonder how long it was going to take me to reach the end. Suddenly I looked to my left and saw a man walking along the street by the concrete beach wall. This startled me for some reason, and I realized that I was acting very strangely. I slowed down and tried to pretend that I was just jogging or something. At this point I was right at the area I had been trying to reach, so I went to the base of the high wall. While I was walking over to some of the large rocks at the base of the wall, I spotted a piece of driftwood. I said out loud “Is that a cat?” and went over to investigate it. I had previously been thinking about animals (specifically my dog) and I had wanted to touch a cat as well. I was interested in sensations in general. Despite sprinting 150~ yards I didn’t really feel worn out, but I was breathing heavily, which is interesting to note because I’m not exactly fit.
I went over to some large rocks that are right up against the base of the wall, and began touching the concrete to see what it felt like. I really enjoyed the rough feeling of it, so I spent several minutes just running my hands along the wall. Eventually I stopped and decided to sit down. I sat there staring at the ground for a while and touching the rock I was sitting on. For some reason I got a slightly paranoid sense that someone was watching me, so I kept twisting around to look at the top of the wall to see if someone was looking down at me from the street. I sat there for a while admiring the ocean and sky some more. I tried to close my eyes to rest for a bit, but my memory of the scenery around me was so vivid that it was almost like I was still seeing everything even with my eyes shut. I reached up to touch my face and verify that my eyes were really closed, and they were.
I sat on the rocks thinking about my life and the people I knew for some time (I was also talking to myself the whole time, but that’s not really unusual for me). I reflected on my personal relationships, and felt that I knew a lot of very good people, and that maybe I didn’t give them enough appreciation. My thoughts moved to a coworker who had recently quit. Despite the fact that I didn’t know him very well, thinking about this made me very upset. I almost cried when I realized I would probably never see them again. My thoughts took a more depressing turn from there, and I realized I needed to steer myself away from that sort of thing.
After steering my mind away, I started to think about the people online who had given me advice. I started thinking about how I needed to thank them for everything they told me. I got up and started walking to an area where the wall gets a bit lower again, and looked over it while standing on my toes. I believe I saw a black and white cat standing on the wall. It is possible that I merely imagined it, since it is a strange coincidence that I had been thinking about cats just a few minutes before seeing this one. I was very excited to see it, because I wanted to touch it and say hello. I tried calling out to it, but it just stayed where it was and looked at me. I then attempted to climb over a lower (5ft~) part of the wall, which should have been a pretty easy task. My coordination seemed to go out of the window though, because I ended up just sort of bumping into the wall instead of hoisting myself onto it. The cat then began to walk away, and I decided to go around the high area and back onto the street. Despite this, I suddenly noticed a clam shell on the ground and picked it up. I stood there examining it for a moment before I remembered what I had been doing.
By the time I got to where I had seen the cat, it was long gone (if it was ever actually there in the first place). I stayed standing on the sidewalk leaning against the wall, and I began to admire some trees on the other side on the street in someone’s yard. Their beauty was breathtaking, and while I was standing there staring at the trees they seemed to fill my entire vision, almost as if my eyes were a camera zooming in on them. I was seeing an illusion of faces in the leaves of the trees, and I remembered seeing a painting showing something similar. As I mentioned before, there was an enhancement of colors. Everything looked very pretty. Every color appeared bright and saturated.
While I was standing there I noticed that someone was approaching me on the left. I believe it was a man wearing a hooded sweatshirt, but when I looked up, he suddenly turned around and began walking in the opposite direction very quickly. I had the sudden urge to go talk to him and at the same time I wondered “Where is he going?” and I was concerned that I had somehow scared him. At this point I realized that I had been standing on the sidewalk for quite some time with my mouth hanging open (I had actually drooled on myself a bit.) I then started to get paranoid about being arrested and decided I should walk home. When the idea of being arrested/confronted by the police crossed my mind, I started to get very annoyed at the notion of someone trying to arrest me for harmless fun. I quickly put this out of my mind because it was bothering me.
I started walking along the sidewalk to head home. I was making a conscious effort to act normal, because I felt like people were watching me.
Still, while I was walking I noticed tracers out of the corner of my vision from my hands swinging at my sides. I began waving my hands around in front of my face to get a better look at them while walking. I realized that looked very odd, so I stopped. I continued to touch bushes, other plants, and grass on my way back though, just to see how they felt. Right as I was arriving home, I saw my neighbor stepping out of his car. This freaked me out, because I didn’t want him to know that I was on drugs. I started thinking to myself about what to say and how to act. This was pretty successful as far as I can tell, because I passed him and he said “Oh hi, what’re you up to?” and I just said “I’m just out for a walk. Have a nice night.” and then kept walking. I felt very proud of myself for not panicking and immediately went inside.
I was making a conscious effort to act normal, because I felt like people were watching me.
After this, I went back to my room and looked at some more pictures, listened to music, and watched some of the shows/videos I had prepared earlier. All of which were very interesting and enjoyable. Music sounded great, and it was easy to get absorbed in listening to it. The program I had chosen (Off the air) was very interesting to watch. It involves a lot of strange video clips full of bright colors and shifting visuals. I watched the episodes 'Color' and 'Light' which seemed appropriate. In total I would say the real trip only lasted about 3-3.5 hours, but I was still feeling a mild headspace for some time after that.
Overall, the trip was amazing. Other than the (short) periods where I felt paranoid or sad, I spent the vast majority of the trip feeling nothing but pure joy and amazement. I really couldn’t have asked for a better introduction to psychedelics, in my opinion.
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