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I Lost Myself
4-AcO-DMT & Cannabis
by PhatG
Citation:   PhatG. "I Lost Myself: An Experience with 4-AcO-DMT & Cannabis (exp108497)". Apr 21, 2021.

  repeated insufflated 4-AcO-DMT (powder / crystals)


[Erowid Note: The dose described in this report is very high, potentially beyond Erowid's 'heavy' range, and could pose serious health risks or result in unwanted, extreme effects. Sometimes extremely high doses reported are errors rather than actual doses used.]

The night before I started at my newest job I wanted to have an end of an era type experience. I had no idea what I had gotten myself into. Me and a friend of mine decided that we would do line after line of 4-AcO-DMT.

Immediately after ingesting my first line I felt waves of euphoria erupting through my body. As we came up I suggested that we go on a trip adventure, so we did. We walked to the house of the dude that we got it from and everything was going great, until I started loosing my mind. As we were walking back I started to notice that it seemed like we were melding souls. Everything I was thinking he was saying and vice versa. I was extremely worried that I was never going to be able to come down. I felt like I was trapped in a place only with him for the rest of my life. I left him alone and went to lay down with my girlfriend, and then my vision completely flip flopped. Everything I was seeing was the exact opposite of how it actually was, right was left, up was down, and I thought that I was dying.
Everything I was seeing was the exact opposite of how it actually was, right was left, up was down, and I thought that I was dying.
I started to freak out. I ran out of my house barefoot on cement to the ER. I didn't make it. I thought that I was permanently going to be tripping. I thought this is what it feels like to die, I am dead.

As I descended deeper into madness I gave up all hope. I ended up running my feet to the point of complete bloody messes and I thought this is how I die, so I laid down on the cement and let my last grip on reality go. About 20 minutes later a police officer pulls up to me and sees that I'm passed out. He wakes me up as I'm still tripping balls and think that he is just a figment of my imagination so I decide I might as well tell him what has happened. Looking back on it that cop was very concerned that I did serious damage. Once we started talking I started coming down and was able to piece together the pieces of the night. I thought I had entered an endless loop of tripping and walking and ended up in an ambulance at the end of the night.

Overall I would do it again now that I know what to expect. It doesnt help that the recommended dose is .025 grams and I took .15 grams and it was my first time. Don't do it without doing research.

Exp Year: 2016ExpID: 108497
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 19 
Published: Apr 21, 2021Views: 430
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