DOSE:

150 mg

oral

Modafinil

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

The first few times I tried modafinil, I could have sworn it was the most over-hyped study drug I'd ever encountered. The 200 mg pill I took left me with a slightly foggy head an energy akin to a small cup of coffee. Modafinil wasn't mine.

But this summer, a full year or more since I last tried it, I discovered a few pills while looking for adderall. I had been working long hours at a difficult job, which involved a ton of socializing with customers (exhausting work for an introvert), and had been taking 20 mg adderall nearly every day to keep my energy and enthusiasm up. But now I found myself out of adderall and approaching my shift, so I split the modafinil in half and popped a half (100 mg). I worked my shift with no drastic mood changes, then popped half of the other half (50mg) with two hours left in my shift. Without even thinking about how contrasting this was from my usual behavior, I went and talked to my manager, offering to stay late. Alone in the office, two hours after I was supposed to clock-out, I began writing poetry in my head, and freely doodling on my papers. The work felt good. I've had writers block all summer, even when I take loads of adderall, so this surprised me. My drive home was fine, and I slept at a normal time.

The next day I took 150 mg in the morning. Just like last time, I didn't so much notice the effects as notice my productivity in retrospect. I didn't feel euphoric like adderall. I just felt, all day, like I was having a good day. Talking freely with customers, speaking fluently in a meeting and offering again to work overtime. It's an interesting drug, one that I don't feel, yet still changes my actions...

I can admit that I love drug-induced euphoria and enthusiasm. Rarely do I take adderall at an appropriate dosage for studying... I much prefer that high dose amphetamine passion. So I guess that's why modafinil is such a strange drug to me. I don't feel it, almost at all. It has less effect than a cup of coffee. But when I take it, my day always flows by with clarity and a sense of purpose. But usually I don't notice that I had a good day until afterward.

As for the addiction potential, I'm sure there is some simply because it is so easy to use in any situation. I would be afraid to rely on this drug to make my days good. I took the last one I had today, and I have no concern about not having any for work tomorrow, so I guess that's a good sign. I wonder if it effects everyone in this subtly wonderful way.

Exp Year: 2016	ExpID: 109152
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Jun 3, 2020	Views: 3,865
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