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Panic Mode
Cannabis
Citation:   beerguy. "Panic Mode: An Experience with Cannabis (exp109271)". Erowid.org. Jun 4, 2019. erowid.org/exp/109271

 
DOSE:
2 hits smoked Cannabis
BODY WEIGHT: 140 lb
Devils Lettuce

I smoked weed for the first time when I was 14, I kind of enjoyed it but mainly I liked rebelling more than anything.
I kind of enjoyed it but mainly I liked rebelling more than anything.
5 years later I finally get my hands on some more. A friend of a friend that I hardly knew brought out some weed. It didn't help that I felt really uncomfortable around this guy.

I took a giant bong rip and he took one, then I took another. When the effects started to kick in a few minutes later I felt instant panic. Everything lost meaning, I was just staring at this guys mouth while he rambled on about things I couldn't follow. I began to feel clausterphobic and wanted to escape but I knew it wouldn't be good enough to escape the pain. I went down to the bathroom. I looked at my face in the mirror, it looked like a stranger, I lost my sense of self. I stared in the mirror for probably 10 minutes, horrified. Finished pissing, went upstairs and told him I have to leave, walking home felt a bit better, I was still in panic mode but I didn't feel trapped. When I got home I played video games for a while and started to get lost in it. Ate a bunch of shit and slept. It scarred me for probably a week.

I tried weed several times after thinking it was a bad batch, it was pretty much the same every time. I think it's because I have social anxiety and something else that really doesn't go well with weed. I'll try it again in the future, but only a tiny hit to see if I still feel like that.

Exp Year: 2014ExpID: 109271
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Jun 4, 2019Views: 524
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