Citation: Brian. "The Birth of Life Itself: An Experience with LSD & DMT (exp109541)". Erowid.org. May 26, 2017. erowid.org/exp/109541
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First Experience Smoking DMT
It was as if I was wearing a jacket made up of everything that makes me, me in the physical world. Before I could even begin to exhale the smoke there's the doorman ready to take my jacket. Any perception of time, or self had just simply slipped away. Then BAM! As if from a projector casting images across a screen, and my mind's eye was the projector. I was now looking upon myself stripped of everything that made me a part of the physical world. What happened next was undoubtedly the most profound, and astonishing experience of my life.
From this visual projection of my disembodied self came white light, and colors racing outward creating this web like network of geometric shapes, and patterns all growing from a white light. It was then that I actually realized the light, and the image of myself outside myself were the same entity. White light begins pulsing through the network, and I had begun to witness the birth of life itself sprouting up from that very network. Now I see that this white light is life, it is the life within me, and every other living being. I had been tapped directly into this network, or birthplace in which all of life originated.
I had been tapped directly into this network, or birthplace in which all of life originated.
Never once through my experience had I felt any sense of self, or body. Though as I watched and began to feel as though I understood what I was witnessing, my surroundings were made present to myself once again. I was able to see, and was totally aware of nature, and life around me. This was no longer what seemed to be projections from inside of me. First I was shown, once I had understood the meaning of these projections, I felt as if I had begun to see things for myself again, I had came outside myself in order to show myself these messages, and upon coming to somewhat of an understanding of these messages; It was then I began to truly see. First I was shown the birthplace of life, then I could see the evolution of life; All of nature, all of life sending messages, and energies to one another. Life evolves by 'communicating' through this network. Then I felt it. In complete synchronicity with my heartbeat I was being hit by vibrations I had never felt before. Communication. Life was trying to communicate to me through vibrational frequencies, and just as I had witnessed the light pulsing through the network, I felt it inside of me as well, pulsing in the same way. First I had to be shown, then I learned to see, and now; Now I can feel.
What was realistically a seven to ten minute experience changed me and the way I see all things. Everything I had ever learned, or felt, all the good the bad, every little detail of my life had been adding up to this moment. And in ten minutes, It all changed. My life's journey had never been so clear, and anything left to get in the way of me and my chosen path, was just tossed out. Imagine an entire lifetime of files, and paperwork all scattered around inside your head. Then the little magic maid known as DMT came in, and said; 'Let me clean that up for ya', It won't even take but ten minutes. My past, present, and even future had become unbelievably organized, and uploaded into a network I now have complete, and total access to.
Someone once told me; 'There's life before DMT, and there's life after DMT'. At the time, I thought I had a pretty good understanding of what they might have meant. Now. Now I understand that I had absolutely no fucking idea what they might have meant. Smoking DMT for the first time was by far the most profound, and astonishing experiences of my entire life.
Note: I really had not set out that day with the intention of smoking DMT. I was however already at a party in the woods with live music, lights, let's just say it was a very festive atmosphere. So set and setting was good, I smoked it in a Teepee with three other people. Even though I did not prepare to smoke DMT, I was in a setting that I was totally comfortable in. I had taken two hits of LSD about an hour or so before I was offered The dreams.
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