DOSE:

repeated

insufflated

Cocaine

(powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT:

120 lb

A Dangerous Drug

From the first time I tried cocaine, I was completely obsessed with it. My boyfriend and I had bought a gram and we were sitting in our living room. I was nervous and excited all at the same time. I had tried a lot of other drugs and was able to use most strictly recreationally. I figured if I hadn't become addicted to heroin or speed, coke would be a breeze. My boyfriend cut a few lines and from the moment the stuff went up my nose, I was done for. I felt amazing. Invincible. Better than I ever had. I stayed all night, then the next...doing coke, feeling happy.

Within 2 months I was doing it all the time. Morning, noon, and night. I had a good connection and good get an 8-ball for $150.00. Even with those discounted prices, I will still spending about $1000 a week on coke. As you can imagine, I was NEVER not coked-up.

The problem was though, aside from the money, was the effect that coke was having on me at the time. Every time I did it after the first few times, I got depressed. I would swear I would stop; that every time was the last time. I would tell myself every day that I wouldnt cop that day, I would quit. Every day I failed. Every day I did the same thing. I paid no bills, all my money went to coke. I didnt even like it anymore, but I couldnt help myself. I was addicted and I was scared.

Somehow after much trial and error I finally kicked the coke habit. Believe me, I am no saint, I still do drugs, but I will never touch coke again. It has been almost 3 years since the last time I touched cocaine and I still struggle with temptation.

Exp Year: 2001	ExpID: 10963
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: Not Given
Published: Jun 21, 2019	Views: 1,072
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