Citation: ky1975. "Matter Dissolving: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (exp109754)". Erowid.org. May 16, 2019. erowid.org/exp/109754
Within the last few years I've been researching ayahuasca, dmt and other psychoactive drugs. Listening to old TerEnce talks. When I was a teen I smoked a ton of pot and took quite a bit of acid. I stopped smoking pot because it got to be too psychoactive for me.
Anyways I've always been a deep thinker and I'm drawn to the mystical magical things in life. I think psychoactive substances fall into this category. So I'm 40 something now and have a family and unfortunately my drug of choice is alcohol and I know it's not doing my body any favors. So I guess I'm going through some kind of midlife thing and I want to experience those moments when you experience life as magical and meaningful for lack of a better word.
I guess I'm going through some kind of midlife thing and I want to experience those moments when you experience life as magical and meaningful for lack of a better word.
I don't have any of the connections I had when I was younger and my friends are my family and I don't want to involve them in this personal journey. So I came up with salvia, San Pedro and mourning glory, all things I could get mailed to my house.
The salvia experience was probably the most intense drug experience I've ever had. I took 2 hits in the basement at my mother in law's. Instantly I flew to the stairs of the basement where I was stopped frozen splayed across the steps. My first thought was I've done it now I took the ultimate drug and I'm not coming back from this.
Time became irrelevant. Snapshots of the past and who the fuck knows maybe even the future started to coalesce in my vision. I had this feeling that my physical body was a quick joke with a short laugh.
I had this feeling that my physical body was a quick joke with a short laugh.
The front of my jaw split apart from my bottom jaw and opened up breaking my head wide open.
So after this happened I saw myself still stuck on the stairs. So I said fuck it I don't care. After I said that to myself I infused into the wood of the stairs and flipped end over end into a black abyss.
I came out of the vision (I guess that's what you call it) with the homemade pipe can in my hand staring at the staircase that I just thought I melted into. By the way when I came out of it cold play's 'do you believe in magic' was playing on the radio.
So about a half an hour after that experience I got on my elliptical and took a shower before I went to work. All I could think about at work was that experience. I still find myself trying to process it two years later. (I still can't) I haven't had the balls to try it again. But I'm still obsessed with psychoactives.
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