DOSE:	2.5 mg	IM	5-MeO-DMT
	4.0 mg	IM	5-MeO-DMT

BODY WEIGHT:

140 lb

Follow-Up to: https://erowid.org/experiences/109250

Intramuscular Experience with 5-MeO-DMT HCl
Set and Setting: In a state of calm, having planned this experience beforehand, and feeling ready to surrender. Mantra on repeat: Ek Ong Kar Sat Gur Prasad, Sat Gur Prasad Ek Ong Kar
Dose: 2.5mg IM

Based upon the intensity of my previous experiment, I decided upon increasing the dose by one milligram to determine how steep the dose response curve is. From a solution with a concentration of 10mg/ml, I drew up 2.5cc's in an insulin syringe to total in a 2.5mg dose. This time I administered the medicine to my right thigh. There was less overall apprehension during this experience due to having some experience and some idea of what kind of intensity would ensue.

The onset was once again about five minutes. There was the same smooth kind of onset and I met it with complete release and surrender, focusing on each present moment. As the intensity built up, I noticed that there was not a feeling of even a potential impending death. It was as if I completely skipped that part. Instead, I was highly conscious and aware of my 'self' as being energy floating inside my body. It was quite literally a sensation of being suspended inside a biological medium. The feeling was electric, but not in the electric socket sense. It was electric in the sense that I could feel the currents flowing through every part of my body. That the energy was inside this outer shell, so-to-speak. In this space, I was able to use breath and conscious awareness to work on areas of energetic stagnation. For me, there has been a consistent one in my heart area. Breathing into this space allowed me to reflect on a few things.

The first thing that came up was full-body awareness. I reflected on how to cultivate it and how by doing so I was naturally being fully present in the moment and in the experience. I reflected on how cultivating this type of awareness might help in my daily life and how I struggle to connect with my body at times. I also became aware that this energy in my body is what is looking out of my eyes. Allowing the energy to flow and tracking its movement produced an effect I had never experienced before. As I was breathing into my heart space which had a bit of heart ache, the energy that was being released from that space began to vibrate out over my entire body. This manifested in slight tremors and shakes that eventually became symmetrical hand motions and mudras that I had never really done before. Once the energy was released, I was able to lay back down. During the (first and strongest) peak of this experience, I felt that I was on the cusp of being aware of all things and all people all at once. This feeling was just on the edge of being overwhelming. It gave way to a deep trance-like state, which included many lucid dream-like sequences and memories. I remember thinking at the time that this felt like a 'visionary' state of mind. This occurred at the 25-30 minute mark.

Shortly after this visionary phase, I became more lucid and reflected on what things in the previous week had disturbed my sense of well-being and inner calm. What came up was a general fear and perception of threat in a variety of environments. I thought about how none of those fears had any roots in reality or in truth. I was able to observe objectively how my monkey-mind regularly creates perceived dangers and threats that drain my energy unnecessarily. This highlighted the importance of present body/energetic awareness. I realized the Truth, which at the time seemed very simple and gradually seemed more complicated as I came back down to Earth orbit. That there is nothing to worry about. This is definitely something I am working towards and will continue to work on in subsequent meditation sessions as well as medicine-assisted sessions.

In the latter part of the experience, I spent some time looking into my eyes in the mirror and communing with the spirit that lives within me. Here I worked on having more love for my Self as well as for my body so that I can have more love to give to others. This was a powerful experience of self-compassion that went much deeper than experiences with MDMA had in the past.

The experience ended at the one hour mark with an afterglow that lasted for quite some time afterwards , between 20-30 minutes.

I would consider this dose to be in the Light/Medium range. My next experience will perhaps be at the 4mg mark. I am suspecting 4-8mg will be in the Medium-Strong range, but will have to move gradually to determine that in a safe and systematic manner. The goal is to not only document the benefits and advantages of using sub-breakthrough doses, but also to map out the levels of intensity for this medicine via the intramuscular route of administration.

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Set and Setting: In a state of calm, having planned this experience beforehand, and feeling ready to surrender. Mantra on repeat: Ek Ong Kar Sat Gur Prasad, Sat Gur Prasad Ek Ong Kar
Dose: 4mg IM

From a solution with a concentration of 10mg/ml, I drew up 4cc's in an insulin syringe to total in a 4mg dose. This time I administered the medicine to my left thigh. As the injection process was slower due to a larger volume being injected, slight effects became apparent as the injection was being completed. These effects included relaxation, and a sight energetic awareness around the outside of the body. I held my intention in my mind and heart: to clear negative patterns of thinking. Namely, only speaking to myself with constructive criticism rather than negative self-talk. Releasing the need to cut myself down.

Once the injection was complete, I laid down. The onset seemed to begin sooner than previous sessions. This time, I began to feel like my self-perception was being sped up. Each breath sent me deeper and deeper within myself. By the five minute mark, I was deeply in the energetic awareness realm. In this state, I could once again feel the energetic currents running throughout my body although this time it felt like it was on a much deeper level. I was not only aware of them, but I could really interact with them. As the energetic awareness built, my body shook slightly and went through a short movement phase which included some symmetrical hand motions as well as a full body stretch.

At the seven minute mark, I could feel energetic blockages coming up through the center of my body. If I used my hands, I felt as if I was actually pulling those things out of my body. As they reached my mouth, I purged, which was more like a dry heave with tears. With the purge came memories of thought patterns which were separating me with my higher self, particularly harsh self-criticism and internalizing perceptions of others. I saw how these were poorly designed defense mechanisms. I was getting well. There were two rounds of purging, which made this session feel like one of the most powerful I have had thus far via the IM ROA. The purging was also less intense than ayahuasca and felt more energetic than visceral.

When I laid back after the purges, I reached a near-peak kind of state. I could see very clearly the role of different people in my life. I could see the mirrors different people were holding up to me and how I might react to them in a way that I felt good about. I began to reflect on how life is just the first part of a bigger trip. Life as we know it is just the come-up. It's just leading up to death, which transitions us into the next part of the whole journey. I thought about how important it is to have compassion for others as they go through this process and come to terms with it in their own way.

At around the 30 minute mark, I became aware of how much my thigh was sore. It felt like I had been punched in the leg. I stretched it for a while and tried not to focus too much on that so that I could focus on the rest of what was going on, but it was somewhat distracting. At this point, I considered that perhaps I had been wrong in thinking that the IM route would be the best for this medicine. This led me to think about the importance of allowing one's self to be wrong in order to form better conclusions and methods. As I entered into this nondual state of thinking, I was able to examine any of my belief structures from a stance of nonjudgement. It was easy to consider all points of view as well as be compassionate towards myself.

I experienced a strong energy coursing through me throughout the experience. I felt that I possessed this energy and that I could draw upon it during challenging moments in my daily life. As I felt this strong energy, I noticed that all energy blockages were gone. I was pure Being, filled with the purest energy coming from the source of all things. I saw how this energy filled us all. Once again, I was aware of the great masquerade. All different pieces of the same being all coming together for this great journey.

I think that the advantage of the IM route is the longer duration of the experience, drawn-out peak, and slow return to baseline. However, the soreness during the experience caused by the injection can be somewhat distracting, especially at this dose. The pain at the injection site was completely resolved by the end of the experience which ended right at the one hour mark.

My thoughts going forward are that IV may be a more desirable route for breakthrough experiences while the IM route is more desirable for somatic work and trauma re-processing. IM slows the experience down to some degree and is also a good way to come to understand the general structure of the 5-MeO-DMT experience. I would rate 4mg IM as a Medium, bordering on Strong dose. I think 5mg would most likely be a light breakthrough. Note that light breakthrough doesn't mean a light dose. It will be a transcendence of being but perhaps still with some body awareness.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 109810
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 25
Published: Jan 18, 2017	Views: 4,187
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