DOSE: T+ 0:00	6 seeds	oral	H.B. Woodrose	(ground / crushed)
T+ 1:45	2 seeds	oral	H.B. Woodrose	(ground / crushed)

BODY WEIGHT:

75 kg

8 HBWR seeds first time experience

tl;dr: found my true self and then lost it again

This night, I had a first time trip on HBWR. I have tripped once before this on LSD during a festival 9 months ago. I don't know the exact dose but the trip was very visual rather than insightful.

I tripped at my home because my father went out which he doesn't do often. I decided to take 6 seeds because I didn't know when I would be able to find a safe place to trip again so I wanted to finally see some excitement. I also decided to chew and swallow the seeds because I was too lazy to buy a grinder.

Because of this, the onset was very long. After approx. 1:45 hours I still wasn't feeling anything. My pupils were wider and I felt calmer but that was it. So I thought I didn't have very potent seeds and I took 2 more. After 0:30 (T+2:15) things began to happen.

I went downstairs to get some snack which I wasn't able to eat. Drinking cold cola felt super cool, my pupils were nuts, my body felt very heavy. I went back to my room and laughed that it's finally happening (since my first and last trip I was very eager to do it again. I even dreamed about it several times.) I cuddled up in a sheet and kept rolling and moaning in my bed. It felt so good. It felt very much like ecstasy I tried in summer on one party (it was bought on the street so I won't call it MDMA). My feet were very cold due to vasoconstriction so I decided to fill my bathtub.

At this time my short term memory stopped working and I was losing idea about time. My thoughts were getting confusing and it is hard to remember what happened. I remember I wanted to try so many things which I thought would be cool while tripping. I got in a thought loop and I was thinking about which one to do first over and over. This went for a while. I finally remembered my bathtub and thanks god I didn't flood the house.

I got into the bath and shut the lights. There were some CEV but it felt more like the flickering when I have low blood pressure. There were no OEV apart from a blur around lights. They felt more like alcohol than LSD. Meanwhile more messy thoughts in the bath.

Later, when I got out of the bath because I was afraid I would pass out, I finally began to understand the messy thoughts. They were the same thoughts I have normally but normally I ignore them. They were the lies I was telling myself. I saw it so clearly. It felt like I was born again. This was the peak of my trip. Got to my room wrote to one of my friend that I was born again and if he will be my new friend (have to turn of internet next time.)

After this my trip started to flip. As I was coming down I got into thought loops again. I felt like I have forgotten all I learnt which bought me dark thoughts and general dysphoria. However, I suffer from depression in normal life so I was used to this and knew that these dark thoughts were really the molecule, not me. I turned on TV to distract me from the thought loop and while watching a film for some 30 minutes I came down to base line.

The trip lasted something over 7 hours.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110150
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: May 18, 2025	Views: Not Supported
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