Citation: ramvoyager. "I Have Waited 45 Years to Take a Psychotropic: An Experience with Salvia divinorum (exp110710)". Erowid.org. Nov 7, 2017. erowid.org/exp/110710
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Greetings. Amazing experience! I'm 59 years old and have waited 45 years to take a psychotropic. I have an analytical type mind, read all types of non-fiction, and have practiced mantra and other yogas for over 40 years. I have tons of mind disciplining background.
I have long been interested in alter states of perception going back to John Lilly's 'Center of the Cyclone'. I grew up at the tail end of the 'Hippy Era', experimenting with Hash and Cannabis in an effort to 'see something beyond', to experience what I read about. But at that time my family and emotional life was very messed up and I wisely avoided dabbling with LSD, Mescaline, and Peyote, all easily available at the time.
I had heard much about set and setting. But I've always been wanting to 'explore' altered states and other planes of existence which I'm convinced there are. Anyway, at the ripe age of 59 I decided to venture forth with Salvia divinorum after spending hours reading about it. I took the advice of gradually increasing dosage, and that's what I want to share especially! Salvia is know as something to deeply respect, for many reasons. I confirm this. It can be an amazing tool.
I chose nighttime when I would not be bothered, everyone else asleep. My office room with large windows. I turned the lights way down. I had 5x extract of Salvia and begin with 1/80 the of a gram. Yes. 1/80th. I used a glass water pipe burning the tiny pinch as advised, not much happened. I've smoked amazing amounts of Hash and Cannabis, all types in the past so I am not 'Green' entirely to herbs.
Then 1/40th which is .025 of a gram. That brought a 'buzz' and a definite sense that 'I'm going somewhere with more.' This was on the same night, 15 minutes apart. I then proceeded to carefully weight out slightly less than 1/20th .03 of a gram. I used a milligram scale. For really making good use I strongly recommend this. Many experienced users do as well.
Who knows exactly how strong an extract is, at least in the beginning it is good to start small. I inhaled the .03 in one lungful, held it for over 30 seconds. And oh man! Wow! I started to trip by the time I put the pipe down. I'm am so happy I did gradual doses so I could get acclimated to tripping.
I'm am so happy I did gradual doses so I could get acclimated to tripping.
So it wasn't some big shock after inhaling a bowlful of 10x and going nuts.
The colors of my blanket slid off onto the floor, the room became filled with checkerboard tiny tiny orange faces. And when I closed my eyes there were intense colorful fractal patterns. I was a little afraid or concerned as it was so different for usual perception but I was completely lucid and there and reminded myself it was 'a trip', altered perceptions and was going to be very brief. Which it was, it went away within five minutes. And I was just ecstatic to see something of what I had heard about. because of my reading I analyzed and reflecting how amazingly the sensory apparatus of my brain was 'fucked up' to put in bluntly. And it was quite interesting.
The next day I felt mentally tired and a little 'seasick' like. I skipped that night's planned session and the second night smoked up .070 grams. Same thing sort of, immediately I felt like a gravitational pull down, tiny faces all in front of my, my arm kind of melted a bit, colors on the wall stretched and poured.
I experienced a commonly told experience of 'slicing'. My body movements became 'sliced' like into many fast photography 'freezes'. I found it interesting. Because of the careful weighed dosage etc. I was completely lucid, tripping like anything I was well prepared, and although it was a tiny bit 'scary' or unsettling for a couple seconds I reminded myself it was just altered perceptions soon to end and enjoyed it tremendously. I was laughing and laughing to see the lampshade pour down when I pulled my gaze away swiftly.
I also realized the favorableness of the trip was largely up to me. At one point the perceptions began to feel ominous, and I could easily see how someone could begin a whole 'trip' of being chased by the blanket whereas it was only a blanket after all, being perceived in a very odd way, 'pouring around me'. I deliberately chose, I made a choice, 'this blanket is a warm orange sunny day' and it is beautiful, look at those flowers over there' and the whole thing shifted. I guess though on a high dose that choice can become less available.
Overall it was quite interesting and entertaining at .08 of a gram 5x and the next day I had some mental weakening or less energy, noises seemed louder than they really were. The next session I used .100 of a gram, 1/10 expecting much more, and I was not disappointed, man does that stuff mess with the brains thalamic cortical etc areas.. whoo hoo! Man, stuff just melting and colorful bands spinning around.
I am SO happy I started gradually to get myself use to the feelings and general experience so I would not be shocked out of my gourd and never want to do it again.
My deep reason for doing this, besides entertainment, and has always been there, is to open up experience of my deep inner feelings and self, and to practice 'being neutral' despite whatever is in my 'field of consciousness'. I have definite experience of being the 'seer', the 'knower of my mind and body', the spirit of my body, and this experience with Salvia was like another practice session.
In Ram Das's book 'Be Here Now' he describes a yogi who's eyes twinkled and said nothing after dropping multiple tabs of LSD. The yogi knew clearly, this is not my actual self, it is something I the eternal soul am aware of. Amazing gift to have that... it so helps to alleviate so much grief that has come my way in life.
I look forward to using Mushrooms which I experimented with once. They gave such a mellow, universal vision, peace with the world kind of experience. I want these experiences to help my further evolution besides entertainment and they seem to offer just that when respectfully utlized as gifts of Nature and the Universal Spirit Mother.
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