Citation: Attitudedee. "Years of Hell Started at 25 on Dexedrine: An Experience with Acetaminophen with Oxycodone (exp110846)". Erowid.org. May 2, 2020. erowid.org/exp/110846
I will start by saying I wrote something about dexedrine addiction when I was 25
. It would be a good idea to read that first as then you can understand my today's life experience report.
Flash forward to 2017. I'm 38!!! I'm a mother of 5 children, 19, 18 (the two original children listen in my story) 11, 10 + 8. I am still a drug addict though I honestly went YEARS without doing anything but smoking weed. Yes I know its still sort of considered a drug I'm not gonna debate it here. It helped. I had gone from doing pills (dexedrine) to extacy to cocaine for 4yrs after my original report. I met the love of my life and he actually ended up going to jail which is what started BOTH of our journeys to a drug free 'ish' life. With weed though. All day. Everyday. Thennnn. True to my every living hellish BRAIN which is ever against me keeping me unhappy... I started getting percocet from a friend and true to my stupid brain I snort them. First just a quarter pill at a time. But that didnt last long I always needed to up the dose.
I always needed to up the dose.
Its never enough. Then onto half a pill snorted every hour then onto a full pill every hour until I dont even know how many I am blowing up my nose. And then I am so trapped in an everlasting cycle of withdrawal and pleasure. But its so expensive to keep up. 5$ a pill at only 5mg of oxycodone. But it makes me feel so much better at life. I can talk to anyone I can do allll my required housework. Going to work is easy.
And then my supply runs out and no one can find any for a couple days and I crash and withdrawal with cold chills and diarhea and headaches and the restless legs and my god the DEPRESSION. The pain is so bad I want to die. Maybe it isnt like this for everyone but I'm 2 years deep into 100$ OR MORE a day sometimes. Dont let it fool you. Playing with fire will burn. Eventually. I'm basically writing this in the fully emersed cycle of withdrawal. Waiting for 2 days till I can get back out of bed.
I'm suddenly realizing I'm a 38 year old mother of 5 and I'm addicted to oxycodone (percocet).
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