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The Blues Are So Blue
4-HO-MET
by ruru
Citation:   ruru. "The Blues Are So Blue: An Experience with 4-HO-MET (exp110972)". Erowid.org. Sep 14, 2017. erowid.org/exp/110972

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
30 mg oral 4-HO-MET (capsule)
  T+ 4:00     Clonazolam  

BODY WEIGHT: 120 lb


Intro
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My boyfriend (Lin) and I have experience in shrooms, LSD, various RCs. His younger brother (Alex) started getting into psychedelics, but only a couple trips (AL-LAD and shrooms once). Alex asked if he could invite his friend who smokes weed (Sam) to come with us. We agreed, despite never meeting him or knowing what he was like.

Doses and Experience:
Me: 30mg, 20 years old
Lin: 30mg, 19 years old
Alex: 30mg, 18 years old
Sam: 15mg, 17 years old


Timeline (Estimated time)
[-0:05] We're very excited. It's been over two months since I've tripped, and I've been thinking a lot about my life. I'm worried I'm making the wrong choices in life and I'll regret it all (the woes of a university student).

[0:00] We take our doses in capsules. We turn on some Japanese pop and start playing Super Smash Bros Melee.

[0:30] Conversion is flowing nicely! No visual effects but muscles feel very tense and I can't stop shaking. The colors are very pretty, even in a game almost 2 decades old.

[1:15] I start seeing rosebuds on the walls and the hallway is twisting. I'm shaking too much to continue playing, so I lay down. I saw the Louis Vuitton pattern end up taking over my vision. It slides across the ceiling, down the walls, and onto the ground. Colors change from greens to purples. Not as much morphing as shrooms, but much more colorful.

[1:20] It doesn't stop.. It keeps getting more and more intense. The music, the conversation, and the visuals become too much to handle at the same time. I step to the bathroom alone to look in the mirror. I look.. very cute. Childlike. I feel silly that I spend so much time worried about my appearance. I look exactly how I want to look. I come back and sit on my computer to watch the text go from bold, to italicized, to different colors. I realize how much progress I've made in the last year. I'm on my way to be the person I want to be (maybe not perfect, but perfect to me).

[1:45] Happy laughter turns into anxious laughter. People feel like they don't know how to act, Sam especially. He is acting very off and laughing in a loud, scary way. He's acting like a goof, and it's making us all uncomfortable. I looked around and I could tell everybody was feeling the same. Lin decides to take Clonazolam to stop the trip. Sam and Alex do the same. I didn't want to take a benzo, I just wanted to be away from Sam.

[2:00] I tell everybody I'm going to get some fresh air. I step outside and it feels like I'm in a Wes Anderson world. Everything is so real! Colors feel more.. pure. genuine. The blues are so blue, the ground is so clean, the air seems so crisp. I walk around and feel so free. I can do anything I want to do. I live in such a nice city full of happy and healthy people. I'm honestly happy to be alive. I sit down on a bench and everything feels genuine. I'm not trying to be anything, life isn't trying to be anything. Oh, and to mention again, the colors! Everything looked like it was the OSX loading cursor (rainbow, spinning).

[2:30] I come back and I see Sam with his shirt off saying he's having trouble breathing and that his eyes hurt. He's groaning loudly and very anxious. We give him more of a benzo and after a while, he becomes intoxicated. He's stumbling and making even more noise. He's not scared, but he can't take care of himself.

[3:00] Yikes. Giving him more of a benzo seemed like a good idea at first, but I regret it entirely. He ended up taking off his shorts to show me his balls.. and made a joke about it. He took a water bottle and kept hitting his head on it while making a ton of noise. He ran down the hallway and slammed his body into the door. We bring him to the bed, and he ends up getting up and falling down on the ground again, making us lift him back up. We're essentially babysitting him. We can't have fun, it takes all of us to take care of him.

[4:00] Over an hour of trying to get him to stay in bed, he finally passes out. I feel bad - I wasted a perfectly good trip. I wish I could have stayed outside (or even the bathroom), but sadly Sam needed our attention. I'm the only one still tripping, so I take Clonazolam and fall asleep

Overview:
I really liked this chemical. There was no mindfuck like other drugs. I had the feeling of being connected without timeskips or thought loops. Not introspective, just pretty colors and feeling happy.
Not introspective, just pretty colors and feeling happy.
I wish I didn't do it with Sam. Doing it alone would be a lot of fun :/

Exp Year: 2017ExpID: 110972
Gender: Female 
Age at time of experience: 20 
Published: Sep 14, 2017Views: 1,229
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