DOSE:

0.5

oral

Cannabis

(edible / food)

BODY WEIGHT:

125 lb

[Erowid Note: Driving while intoxicated, tripping, or extremely sleep deprived is dangerous and irresponsible because it endangers other people. Don't do it!]
This was my first time getting really high on edibles. I'd been a fairly regular/competent smoker, and had used weak edibles once or twice. This was my first year at college, and some of my friends were going to play lazer tag. I heard that there were going to be some brownies involved, and so I was pretty hyped for that.

On the car ride there my friend gave me a brownie, warning me to only begin with 1/4th of a brownie because they're quite potent. I tried to break off 1/4th of the brownie, but it was super dark and crowded in the car, so when I looked at the brownie later I realized that I had probably taken more like 1/2 of one. I was in a pretty good mindset going in - wasn't anxious at all, just looking forward for my experience. I used to be afraid of being high in group settings, but I've gotten used to it.

We walked into the lazer tag place, it was kind of in the middle of nowhere. There was a whole big group of people, a lot of young kids. We realized that we couldn't just immediately go in and play, we had to wait for the next game, so we sat down at one of the tables.

At this point, waves of high-ness were starting to hit me. One thing that I've noticed with edibles is that they come in waves, as opposed to smoking which comes in one sharp increase of high-ness. Anyways, I was starting to feel pretty good. There were sparkling visuals which overlayed everything, and I noticed a sort of flatness or heaviness in my body. I was high enough at this point that I was struggling to talk to the people around me, so I mostly just observed them.

Finally the next game was available, and we crowded into this room with a bunch of other people who were gonna play. I saw this man, I think he was the father of this big family, and I felt immense terror when I perceived him. He had a great aura of violence around him. This was probably just the high talking, but I created this whole story about how he was a veteran who was addicted to the violence and so he came to the lazer tag place with his family to 're-live' the violence that he loved, so that he didn't have to be a serial killer or something. Yeah, I got really into that.

I was continuing to get more high - the come-up seemed to be really long. I was the only person who hadn't played at that specific lazer tag place before, so the guy who owned the place talked to me one-on-one to describe how everything worked. I could barely pay attention to what he was saying, it seemed like such a divine comedy, like he was just an actor playing his role, but in an ironic way. He was playing 'himself'. I had to hold myself back from laughing.

I got into the lazer tag place and it was total sensory overload. I felt as if I was in this great tribal ritual, we were re-enacting this great battle which our tribes had faced millennia ago. It made me think about how lazer tag places are designed with sensory overload in mind, as in they are meant to be overloading our senses, and they can bring people into altered states of consciousness this way. Anyways, I was continuing to grow higher, and I got REALLY into the lazer tag. I was running around, I was crawling, I was choosing targets to assassinate - my entire being was sucked into this lazer tag game. It was ecstatic. At one point, during the peak, I couldn't help myself from dancing to the music that was playing. I was strutting around, twirling and jumping, constantly shooting in circles... Apparently friendly fire was on so all of my friends were pissed. I was in such ecstasy that I couldn't stop dancing and shooting.

After this we drove to meet up with some more people. It seemed to me that I was still getting higher, or staying at the same plateau of incredibly high. Something interesting happened on the car ride. I looked over to the guy on my right, we'll call him D. I went to high school with him, so I was comfortable with him, but we weren't super good friends or anything. I said to him, without any particular purpose, 'Let me look into you my child.' He immediately knew what I wanted, so he turned and stared at me as I stared at him.

We continued this for quite some time, I am unsure of how long. He began to dissolve, like who he was. I saw his face, but it no longer had any meaning. I saw him, but I had no attachments to his ego. He was just another being, and we were interacting. I had no conception of who he was, all role interactions, all social posturing was dropped. And I felt immense love, immense compassion. Now that the ego was out of the way, now that the social postures were out of the way, I could experience him fully. I think that he had the same experience as me, but I'm not sure.

Interestingly enough, this idea of looking beyond ego masks continued as the evening progressed. At our destination, I looked up, and I saw this guy... It's hard to remember what he looked like. He had a thick beard, and on he was wearing what I perceived as some sort of religious head-wear. It was very small, like a small piece of cloth. I believe it is jewish.

Anyways, I looked up at him, and I am almost sure he was an enlightened spiritual master. He looked at me, and I felt total love, total compassion, similar to what I experienced with D. However, I could tell that he felt this constantly. He looked at me, and I felt love, but I could tell he felt that amount of love towards everything... He wasn't focused on me at all. He saw everything as God, as Divine. At least, that was my perception... But I was very intoxicated.

Afterward, I got dropped off. The guy that was driving didn't know where my dorm was, and I was completely unable to guide him to it, so he just dropped me off at a random place on campus. From there, I had to complete like this, hero's journey. I felt immense fear, for some reason. I was lost and had heard it was not good to be out that late at night, as well as the fact that I still had some of the brownie with me so I didn't want to seem to suspicious or anything...

It's hard to remember what happened during my hero's journey, but I just wandered around until I found somewhere that I recognized. I felt like a stranger in a strange land.

When I got back to my dorm room (I have my own bedroom, which is super nice), I was higher than ever. My whole body was buzzing and disintegrating, multicolored patterns were going up and down my field of view. I figured I should take advantage of my high and do fun stuff, but I couldn't figure out how to interact with anything in physical reality. I opened my computer, then just stared at it and went into a thought loop. I really had no clue what was going on, so I decided to go to sleep.

Weirdly enough, I really enjoyed just being with my thoughts in this super high state. By getting in to bed and turning off the light, I essentially freed myself from the physical world, so I could exist on a thought level, and I felt very happy. I remember that when I was lying there in bed, I was basically controlling my ego. As in, I could change parts of my personality, fears and desires, attachments, etc. I remember that I did away with my fear of buzzing insects, which seems like a small thing, but it still can be deeply, neurotically attached within the subconscious. Now, I let bees land on me.

That's my story, it was a good time. I experienced many realities! Hallelujah!

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110982
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Dec 12, 2017	Views: 2,145
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