DOSE: T+ 0:00	1 bowl	smoked	Salvia divinorum	(extract)
T+ 1:20	2 carts.	inhaled	Nitrous Oxide

BODY WEIGHT:

70 kg

I am experienced with psychedelics including: LSA, LSD, Psylocybin, Mescaline, 2C-B and the hallowed drug DMT. I have also experienced disassociates including DXM and Ketamine. None of these prepared me, for what Salvia offered.

Packed cone of 20x salvia. A couple of beers, nitrous chargers, in the previous hours which didnt have any real weight on the experience.

Take the salvia hit, a bit harsh but not to the point of coughing. Sitting on couch on varandah as the sun lowers, beautiful view. Father, two friends and my partner sitting around a table with me. On my birthday.

Begin coming up, extremely intense, float up past weed, LSD, mescaline, DXM, DMT. Keep on going. Intense visuals but no hallucinations, size and depth perception completely alter, colours become extremely bright.

My thoughts go: This is to intense, is this what people feel when they overdose on Nbom? I hope I don't freak my family out. How long have I been gone? I need to keep together.

My dad talks with my friend about drugs and stuff. I understand what they are saying but become increasingly detached from who they are and who I am. I'm a guy who takes drugs? The people around me support me? How and why do they like me? How could they want to support this? Who are was what were where? Intense visuals, everything becomes part of this cubie, staircase pattern, I detach from my Body and become just a consciousness observing what is going on around me. Everything is weird and alien. I ask how long has it been. Dad responds like 5 mins. Time has completely detached and distorted feels like an eternity, I thought I wouldn't come down, I thought this was it. Hold it together.

Talking and movement kept me attached to reality. Though it was a completely different reality. I thought I never want to do this again, I never want to do any drugs ever again. Normal consciousness seemed so sacred and precious. Assuming I went back to reality. But I didn't think I would, I didn't think it was possible after going where I was. People talk to me and I say things like 'wow', 'incredible', 'don't try it if you have any anxiety in you'.

I slowly began to saunter back, very slowly. I don't know what to do with my body, how to sit and how to hold myself. I feel I look pretty awkward to everyone. The feeling of being extremely extremely stoned with an extra feeling of unreality. Dry mouth.

By far the most intense and unreal thing I've ever experienced, I didn't and would never have fathomed one could experience something like that. Continue slowly reacclimating, my partner comes and sits next to me and cuddles. Helps to ground me. My partner and dad then bring out my birthday cake with candles and a sparkler. I sit and stare at it for a while before I blow it. Food was alright, I felt like I should have had the munchies or something. Continue coming down for the next 20 mins or so. Had a double nitrous balloon like an hour later which brought it back a bit.

When I was up there no other drug was remotely like it let alone intense.

Despite the seeming fear in the report, I wasn't particularly scared, that's why I handled myself so well, any fear would send me straight to hell. There was no euphoria or anything like it. It was pleasurable in its own way and I could see some people really enjoying it. I think I'll try it again some time, I'm one of the few that enjoy that kind of thing, I think.
Holy shit

A couple of days after I woke up late in the night with an intense flashback of the trip which was although disturbing, not scary and helped to bring back some of the stuff I couldn't make sense of before.

The fact that that it's possible to experience reality like that means that it exists and is always there. It's just a matter of whether you realise it and see it or not. The strange place is always there, endlessly, waiting for it to be realised by a hapless traveler altering the wavelengths of their consciousness. That place is a part of everyone's consciousness. Is it higher? An ultimate truth? Is it a dark, warped and misleading, low?

Salvia is not a drug, it's a checkpoint that will be forever notched in my life of the experience that there's more to reality than everything my consciousness could ever imagine.

I later gave the remaining hit to a friend who didn't get quite as strong experience but none the less profound. I watched him so intently as he came up, trying to fathom the place he went.

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 110986
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 19
Published: Feb 1, 2021	Views: 566
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