DOSE:

1 hit

smoked

Salvia divinorum

(extract - 10x)

BODY WEIGHT:

165 lb

Before I tried salvia divinorum, I had tried only marijuana and alcohol. I had researched salvia thoroughly and mostly knew what I was in for or what I should expect. This was over ten years ago, I was around 17 or 18.

The setting was at my friend’s place and there were about six of us there, all friends who hang out occasionally and smoked weed. It was daytime and a nice day outside. I went into the sunroom alone with JL who was my best friend, and the only one I felt comfortable tripping with because I knew he wouldn’t judge, make fun of me, or mess with me while tripping.

The sunroom has white walls with many windows. We both sat on a bench and I leaned with my back against the wall facing JL. I was slightly apprehensive and tense. He lit the pipe for me, I inhaled a small hit, and he took the pipe and lighter away. I think it was 10X salvia we were smoking at that time.

When I blew out my puff, I didn’t see much happen, but noticed a vague “jumping” in my vision, like everything suddenly wavered – the walls, floor, everything that defined solid straight lines that shouldn’t normally move, wavered but for a moment. Like – thump – waver - and stop. Everything was silent. JL disappeared, it was vaguely almost like another layer presented over reality to cover him up, but I still knew he was there, I just couldn’t see him.

I slowly began to feel some strange sensations. I felt a focused sensation on my face or lip like a pin being pushed through my face, which I believe may have been just the sensation of me biting my lip since I was anxious, but caused me to feel like I was being pinned to the wall – I was tacked to the wall! I noticed I was feeling flat-like and suddenly felt like I was a poster tacked to the wall. I genuinely felt like a flat poster tacked to the wall for several moments. I think at this point I may have been touching my face.

This feeling diminished and I think I saw JL again, he might have asked “how are you feeling” or something like that. I don’t remember if I said anything. I wasn’t sure at this point if his presence was comforting or judging. I looked to my left and saw a machine where the window should have been. An orange machine with eyes and a smile. It had a mechanical presence and seemed to transmit ideas and sensations to me telepathically. A very weird thing to describe. Like it was the thing overseeing the trip. It didn’t move or do anything but was just there, and I sensed it. We were linked in a sort of way, and I didn’t want to do anything to upset him, lest he becomes hostile.

I then noticed shadows on the wall, kind of like shadow puppets, but these were many hands sliding up the walls everywhere; shadow hands. It didn’t scare me but I just watched it happen. I felt a strong pull on my left arm and felt like I was merging with the wall. I turned to look at what was happening and noticed my whole left arm being sucked into an interdimensional rift. It was merged with the wall/rift. This rift led to another dimension of space. I saw beings in there floating, or more like “felt” them. They invited me into the rift and told me it would all be okay. I felt a sense of infinite, closeness, warmth, and the divine from the dimension. For a moment, my mind slipped into this place and felt what it would be like to be joined into that dimension, to allow myself to be sucked in. It was very inviting to plunge into the timeless unknown, but the thought of leaving my safe gravity, physics-driven, and reliable universe to go into the unknown made me uncomfortable and claustrophobic, and I pulled away and stood up. I told my friend I needed to get out of there and proceeded from the sunroom into the apartment. I think at some point one or two friends came in to watch me trip, then left, but I vaguely remember. It’s hard to remember what happened in “the real world” as events and time seem fragmented when I try to remember.

I walked through the hall and towards the kitchen and felt like it was finally over. But it was not yet over, suddenly I was in a black space, time seemed to stop, and I was walking on a treadmill going nowhere as the world continually rolled up underneath me. Something like in cartoons where they run and the ground just moves underneath them but they stay still. I don’t remember how long this happened but it wasn’t too long. Maybe 5- 10 seconds.

I reached the kitchen, feeling kind of zoned out and groggy and I might have smoked some weed at that point as two or three people were in the kitchen. I suddenly felt like I conquered a huge demon. I did it, I smoked Salvia and lived. I was glad to have my sanity back and be grounded in the known, reliable, universe where strange occurrences didn’t happen. The rest of the day I felt introspective, groggy, and like I had been through a big ordeal.

Exp Year: 2005	ExpID: 111103
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Mar 24, 2023	Views: 281
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