DOSE:		oral	Pharms - Bupropion	(daily)
		oral	Naltrexone	(daily)
		IV	Ketamine

BODY WEIGHT:

208 lb

I dislocated my arm, and in many cases could usually get a dose of a narcotic such as morphine or fentanyl and then get hauled away by ambulance to the hospital to have it re-located. However I was currently taking Contrave [Bupropion & Naltrexone] for weight loss, which contains Naloxone (sic). Since Naloxone cancels out any opiate I was simply left with the option of being dosed up directly to vein 120mg? of Ketamine.

After some research, this seems to be too much to administer, and looking back the small town ambulance tech seemed to be unsure about himself. Anyhow, I immediately felt drunk, then after about 1 min. I can remember suddenly and shockingly loosing all senses. Could not hear, feel myself breath, feel my heart beat, anything. I became unaware of everything EXCEPT this damn image of a beige disk that was slowly turning, about 1 revolution per hour. I had to have seen this disk, only this disk, with a black odd shaped hole in its center, nothing else for what seemed to be eternity, could not close my eyes, turn away from it, it was there and my thoughts were not capable of thinking of anything else, almost to the point that anything of this life that was worth remembering must not have been important any longer because I couldn't any longer recall it. I remember trying to recall scripture but no longer could. I felt very bored, and unstimulated. I remember loosing all sense of self, or even memories of self, and to a point where I tried to explain that the only explanation I had for my current status is that my self no longer existed, that I had DIED! That my new existence consisted of this damn unchanging, unexplainable, inescapable figure of a disk, in front of my face, all surrounded by nothing.

This may have gone on for eternity until the drug must have worn off around 20min later and I saw just the face of the ambulance tech pop into this image I was seeing, and float around it. Hearing him tell me that I should be happy I could not remember what was happening to me. Sorry but I rather would have felt the pain of the dislocation than to get stuck in the k-hole, and acquire a feeling of disassociation that has lead to lasting feelings of dispiritualzation of life and PTSD of the event. To this day, about 1 week later, I worry about that f'n image popping back into my head!

Exp Year: 2017	ExpID: 111354
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 33
Published: Apr 11, 2018	Views: 1,742
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