Citation: jcdjcdjcd. "Heaven and Hell in One Instant: An Experience with 4-AcO-DMT (exp111392)". Erowid.org. May 29, 2018. erowid.org/exp/111392
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It has been about a year since my last major psychedelic experience and I thought I should share one of my most difficult and intense experiences on psychedelics. Background experience: I've tripped before on shrooms, LSD, 4-ACO-DMT, DMT, JWH spice (BAD IDEA) and a bunch of other research chems related to LSD and psilocin, plus occasionally smoked cannabis, tobacco.
This would be my third experience with 4-ACO-DMT and by far the most intense. I tend to stay away from research chemicals but this night my friend who I will call B and I had not tripped in a while and where I live shrooms are hard to come by so we had ordered some research chems from a trusted vendor a week prior. Tonight we had that 'psychedelic itch' and somehow it felt like fate to take this trip tonight....
T+0:00: So at around 7PM at B's house when it was getting dark we measured out 20mg each of 4-ACO-DMT and mixed it into some orange juice to try and cover up the bitter taste. It went down smoothly with only a little bit of bitterness. I felt a bit of anxiety about this trip, I have a bit of general anxiety and I find it hard to calm my mind sometimes before a psychedelic experience. B took his and is now watching TV on the couch. I close my eyes and try to calm my mind with meditation before the trip begins.
T+1:00: Not much has happened surprisingly, B reports a bit of a head buzz and bright lights but I feel nothing.
T+1:30: Still nothing. Disappointed, we write it off as a weak batch of the drug, and decide to take more. B takes another 20mg and says he is done messing around with it for tonight, if it works it works, if not he won't try any more. On the other hand, I am anxious to trip for some reason I feel like I need to do it. I pour an unknown amount (BAD IDEA - probably 40-50mg) of the 4-aco-dmt into my cup and chase it with orange juice.
T+2:00: I feel like I am on a roller coaster heading to the big drop at the top. Visuals are finally ramping up and the walls feel alive. I see all sorts of ancient patterns and fractals on everything. B takes a hit of cannabis from a bong, and when he exhales it seems like the smoke is made of thousands of tiny crystals shining like diamonds. It is incredibly beautiful. My anxiety melts away but I still a little tense.
T+2:30: The experience has become extremely intense. B says he is enjoying the visuals as he is watching TV but I can barely respond to him, my words feel jumbled and unnatural. I feel like I am losing control of my body and floating away. This scares me but I am somehow peaceful about it. I feel so weak that I lay down on the couch head in the pillow and from there I cannot move.
T+3:00: All I can see are fractals, patterns that seem to describe the universe, I feel connected with everything and humbled by a presence that takes all my remaining anxiety away. I am at peace with the universe. The visuals are indescribable and breathtaking.
T+3:30: Now almost 4 hours into my trip, there is NO SIGN of it going away. It is still getting stronger and stronger. I see myself growing older, falling in love, I see my entire life flash before my eyes. I realize that death is only a transition, and it should not be feared. I feel my ego melting away and getting lost in the fractals and patterns swirling around me.
T+:4:30: I am in this state for at least an hour, my memory of this stage of the trip is cloudy. Suddenly, forgetting everything I just learned, as if time did not exist, it felt like I was instantly teleported directly to hell. Like one second I was shown the good path, now I must experience the bad path. All the fractals turned blood red and appeared to be like gears tearing the flesh of my mind apart slowly. I immediately come back to having control of my body and I jump up from the couch and run outside and puke until nothing more comes up. Everything around me is this sickening blood red and I feel like I am going insane, losing every last thread of who I am.
T+5:00: I am pacing around the house holding my head looking like a complete maniac. It feels like my head and body are being squeezed so tightly that my blood vessels will burst and I will die. I start drinking copius amounts of water to try and flush the drug out of my system. I immediately puke again then fall over on the couch. It feels like my body is full of toxins and I lay there shaking uncontrollably. There are no rational thoughts in my head, only pure chaos and evil.
There are no rational thoughts in my head, only pure chaos and evil.
T+6:00: B enters the room and asks if everything is ok, to which I reply 'I think I'm gonna die'. This scares him a bit and he walks into the kitchen and offers me some water. This time it stays down and the cool feeling of the water entering my body makes me feel a little more grounded then before.
T+7:00: An hour later, I am sitting on the couch trying to ignore the devilish thoughts in the back my my mind. I feel gross, almost like my body is rotting from the inside. I had intense abdominal pain which started at when the trip turned bad, and it is thankfully lessening now.
THE NEXT MORNING: I stayed up for several more hours and fell asleep in the early AM. The trip slowly left my mind, but left it like a barren wasteland. I feel extremely exhausted and confused.
The trip slowly left my mind, but left it like a barren wasteland. I feel extremely exhausted and confused.
B and I smoke some cannabis and talk for several hours about the night before. I drive home and avoiding my parents and siblings, I get into bed and fall into a deep dreamless sleep for the rest of the afternoon.
3 Days after: I still get intense anxiety and chills thinking of that night.
This would be the beginning of a long break from psychs for me, but I have returned to exploring the psychedelic world, however I have never tried 4-ACO-DMT since, and I don't think I ever will. Now a year later, I still get a twinge of panic when I think about that day, and from writing this. It almost feels like the good and bad part of the trip canceled each other out though. I hope nobody will ever have to experience what I went through that night when it turned bad. Peace and love yall!
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