Citation: mindexplorer. "Soul Families: An Experience with 4-AcO-DMT (exp111586)". Erowid.org. Mar 10, 2018. erowid.org/exp/111586
I wish I could describe in full what I experienced, but that is impossible...
Set: I've been going through a very rough patch in my life, and I recently developed some bad habits like recreationally mixing tramadol with alcohol. Yesterday I consumed < 5mg of 4-AcO-DMT and had one of the strongest experiences in my life, so I had anticipated that this trip was going to extremely powerful. I also began playing Skyrim for the first time this week.
Setting: lazy Saturday lying down and meditating in bed.
I placed ~ 7 mg of 4-AcO-DMT powder in my mouth (which I eyeballed), went into my bedroom, and laid down. Within a few minutes I received intuitive wisdom that I should consume a larger dose. So I placed another ~ 5 mg in my mouth. The first 20-30 minutes were rather boring and filled with anticipation.
When the effects kicked in, 30-40 minutes after holding the bitter tasting powder in my mouth, I felt like I was hit by a tidal wave. I began feeling sensations identical to ayahuasca, sensations I've felt prior to purging. It felt like vines were coursing through my body, squeezing and pulling my arms and my stomach and my intestines. I had to use all of my power to stop myself from throwing up. During this process, two goddesses appeared in my room, standing next to me, and they did something that I can only describe as bringing me closer to death. They were there to comfort and guide me, and I fully trusted them with my life. It felt like my life force was being draining from my body, and I knew that I was intentionally being brought closer to death. I was having difficulty breathing, like I was drowning. When my 'lifeforce' was returned to my body, I would feel extremely nauseous.
I was having difficulty breathing, like I was drowning. When my 'lifeforce' was returned to my body, I would feel extremely nauseous.
This sensation reminds me of what I imagine water boarding feels like. Upon one cycle of this near death process, I felt like I was in the presence of an entity that I recognize from my experience with ayahuasca.
I could not describe what happened to me next, even if I wanted to. There were moments near the peak were I could almost touch the fullness of 5-meo-DMT. I felt deeply connected with our tribal past. I had a lot of tough mental and physical processing to go through in my mind and body. Only God knows why I was able experience a trip this powerful on such a small dose of 4-AcO-DMT. It was a spiritual ass kicking like none other, but I felt safe and guided with loving care and attention.
The vast majority of the experience is indescribable with words. With that being said, I encountered entities / oversouls / higher guides / organic / families consistently, in cycles, for hours. Every family / oversoul group had a distinct personality and something to share with me. Some of these families only spoke Spanish, some of these families were culturally black (I wasn't able to clearly see skin color), some of these families were not human, some were shared with animals and other exotic forms of consciousness difficult to describe with words. One soul family was shared with wolves, and at certain levels in my trip I howled (in my mind) with this soul family.
Conclusion: I believe we are heading towards a techno shamanic future that will go unnoticed for the majority of the population. For the few of us lucky enough to be aware, it is beyond our wildest dreams.
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