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Did Not Know It Could Be This Type of Good
MDMA
by Terpenesaremagical
Citation:   Terpenesaremagical. "Did Not Know It Could Be This Type of Good: An Experience with MDMA (exp112039)". Erowid.org. Jun 21, 2018. erowid.org/exp/112039

 
DOSE:
  oral ALD-52  
  100 mg oral MDMA (powder / crystals)
  100 mg oral MDMA (powder / crystals)

BODY WEIGHT: 155 lb


I had no intention of rolling that night, but that morning decided to experiment by microdosing a 125 mcg tab of ALD52. However, my roommate and I cut off too much of the tab (one simply cannot eyeball 10mcg with a 125mcg tab of ALD52) and spent the day not tripping, but strongly sedated by serotonin. I consumed a coffee in hopes of making the ALD52 a little more productive, but this mainly just woke me up, and productivity was still slow, and I was still a little high, albeit no visuals.

That night, the ALD52 subsided into a nice microdose buzz - the gentle, subtle and not overbearing euphoria which I had been seeking that day. One of our friends, a talented young filmmaker, was premiering a film which he had completed over the summer between semesters. In the rented out college theater, the film seemed to touch me very personally - not just due to my presence on set (and a few cameos) but the fact that this artist, one of my best friends on this earth, had made a masterpiece. Emotionally, I was already fulfilled, and because of the tiny amount of ALD52 binding to my serotonin receptors, I was extremely present in a emotionally available, fluid headspace.

That night, someone decided that we should all roll. Our dealer was back on campus, and said he had incredible MDMA. It has been far longer than three months since my last and first roll, which was not very fun, but for reasons other than poor quality MDMA. We all purchased a point, expecting the rest of the night to rap up after one 5-hour roll.

When the MDMA kicked in, I noticed two things were immediately different. First, the MDMA was incredibly clean, confirming my suspicion that the empathetic, tweaky yet prolactinergic chemical which I had ingested prior was probably not MDMA at all. Second, was that there was a fullness in this high which I had to attribute to the ALD52. There was a sharpness to the stillness of everything, and it seemed that every sensory input took the shape of an aura with incredibly curved roundness.
There was a sharpness to the stillness of everything, and it seemed that every sensory input took the shape of an aura with incredibly curved roundness.
To clarify, if someone ran up to me - sober - and thrust a portable speaker playing music full volume directly in my ear, I would probably curse out of she shock and pain of such a sudden stimulus entering. But this was different; if that happened (and it did - sought our such an experience) the music, regardless of how abruptly entering my perception, would feel smooth and welcomed. Not only that, but all music was amazing - easily one of the best experiences I've ever had with the medium. I had never gotten to such a state with drugs where all stimuli was rendered so wonderful. If I could have added anything to that perfect night, it would certainly have been romance.

That night was magical. We migrated from our hot apartment to a cool, beautiful field with a speaker, and just talked. While MDMA may be very fake, the ecstasy achieved that night was truly fulfilling, which I attribute to the ALD52. The euphoria and empathy I felt was real, far more similar to mushrooms than to the synthetic edge of artificial phenethylamines. We redosed as our dealer found us at the field, and while the next few hours were wonderful, the first dose was truly incredible. I had no idea MDMA could be this type of good.

The next day, we all met back up for breakfast and migrated to the same field. The hangover was short lived, and that night was almost equally as fulfilling simply due to the fulfilled state of mind I had been put in by the MDMA/ALD52 the night before. I have not had a roll this good since, which I attribute to the lack of ALD52 as well as differing context. MDMA is an incredibly contextual drug. This experience made me far more interested in pursuing the experience of MDA, as it is supposedly smoother and somewhat psychedelic compared to its sister MDMA - perhaps it will share a resemblance to the experience which I had that lovely night in September.



Exp Year: 2017ExpID: 112039
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 20 
Published: Jun 21, 2018Views: 648
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