It Felt Like They Were Real
Methamphetamine, Lorazepam, Mirtazepine & Unknown
by Saint-Sinner
Citation:   Saint-Sinner. "It Felt Like They Were Real: An Experience with Methamphetamine, Lorazepam, Mirtazepine & Unknown (exp112200)". Erowid.org. Aug 14, 2018. erowid.org/exp/112200

 
DOSE:
T+ 0:00
  repeated smoked Methamphetamine  
  T+ 11:00 4 mg oral Pharms - Lorazepam (pill / tablet)
  T+ 11:00 15 mg oral Pharms - Mirtazapine (pill / tablet)
  T+ 11:00   oral Unknown (pill / tablet)
  T+ 26:00 15 mg oral Pharms - Mirtazapine (pill / tablet)

BODY WEIGHT: 66 kg


First off I use meth responsibly and never have and never will binge. I've read stories of people binging for days or weeks on end and go into full on psychosis mode. The first few times of using it I've experienced nothing but euphoria and alertness but this time it was more than that.

My first hit was about 4pm, felt euphoria and I kept talking nonstop to my friends all of them were high too. Redosed another 0.1g for the next 2 hours, nothing much to report except same feelings of euphoria and alertness. At about 11pm, smoked my last 0.1g and went home. My body starts to get aches which is not unusual for me and my fingers and feet were starting to tingle.
My body starts to get aches which is not unusual for me and my fingers and feet were starting to tingle.


This is where things start to get worst. At around 3am, the tingling in my fingers and feet start to get worst and I began to panic and I get super paranoid thinking they are gonna fall off. I took 1mg of Lorazepam to help my panic attacks but it didn't work so I took another 3 more together with some generic muscle relaxant and 15mg of Mirtazapine to help me sleep. Usually when I'm on meth, I take 2mg of Lorazepam and 15mg of Mirtazapine and I'll knock out within 30 mins. However, I was told this batch was different from the ones I usually take so instead of knocking out in 30 mins with my usual combo of oral drugs, I became even more alert and paranoid.

11am, 12 hours after my last dose, I began hearing weird noises coming from outside my room. I brushed it off thinking it was just my noisy neighborhood. My fingers were still tingling, my body was heating up and my heart was beating irregularly, I felt like I was gonna have a full on heart attack. At about 1pm, the noises subsided but I started seeing shadow people in my room. I've read online that you only see shadow people in high doses and if you have not slept in more than 3 days. My dose is considered low and I woke up at 1pm the day before so it was only about 12 hours since I last slept. The shadow people appeared when I stare at my wall for about 15 seconds. My wall suddenly became like a glass and I could literally see right through it like it's another dimension behind my wall, with 2 shadow people talking to each other. I freaked the fuck out and looked to my bed with my clothes on it. My clothes then start morphing into weird faces and they looked like they were talking to me, I freaked out again and threw my clothes on the floor. I tried to do things to distract myself but every time I stop and look at my peripheral vision, I see apparitions floating towards me and streaks of light that would suddenly turn into white particles of dust that would land on my skin and make me itch all over. The colors around me became darker and my skin suddenly looked brown (I am tan in color). This lasted for at least 4 hours and I thought I should've come down by then since it has been more than 12 hours since my last dose.

The shadow people stopped appearing after 6 hours into my first hallucination
The shadow people stopped appearing after 6 hours into my first hallucination
, but I still saw apparitions and inanimate objects in my room float and morph. I began having auditory hallucinations again, this time I kept hearing satanic music being played on my laptop. I was so freaked out I kept asking my mom if she heard them but she kept saying it was just the fan from the laptop making those noises.

After what seems like forever, at about 26 hours after my last dose, I took another 15mg of Mirtazapine to help me sleep. Surprisingly I managed to sleep within the next hour. The next few days however were really bad, both my body and my mind felt like I was in some sort of accident and I kept having really bad anxiety for the next week.

This whole meth experience doesn't even feel like I took meth, but some kind of weird psychedelic drug that made me hallucinate like crazy.

Exp Year: 2018ExpID: 112200
Gender: Male 
Age at time of experience: 25 
Published: Aug 14, 2018Views: 1,824
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