DOSE:	repeated		Opioids
	repeated		Heroin

BODY WEIGHT:

160 lb

When I do opioids or heroin I look for a certain feeling. Sure they are capable of producing a body high similar to cannabis in lower doses, but they possess a quality that cannabis will never produce no matter how much I ingest... The ability to produce a unique and very euphoric dream state. When I am in this state I feel as though I have no worries, I am wrapped in a warm blanket, nice and sedated, I feel very secure. My inhibitions fade to nothing, I close my eyes and I think about the most beautiful woman I have seen in my life. Sometimes the thoughts are not sexual, but purely comfort as though they are present with me.

I want this world. I want it so bad that I want it to become my reality. But in reality, I am alone, and it is much easier to ingest drugs that produce this fake mind state, rather than to put in the actual effort in life to achieve it. I am caught in this terrible cycle. My mind is somewhat distorted and I don't have much drive to make this my reality. Until I figure it out I will be dreaming of peace and bliss, but really I am fooled by this tempting woman, who slowly and methodically wastes my life. She keeps calling me back...

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 112377
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 23
Published: Aug 19, 2020	Views: 622
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