DOSE:		oral	Pharms - Risperidone	(daily)
	300 mg	oral	Diphenhydramine

BODY WEIGHT:

150 lb

So this is not my first time getting high on DPH. I've probably done it like 15 times or so by now, and it's always the same, pretty much regardless of dose (except the one time I took two 375mg doses within a few hours of each other, which gave me really bad blurry vision and ended in a seizure). This time I just happened to have wrote down a lot more than any other time. It's pretty interesting to read after the fact.

T+0:30 - The effects haven't come on yet. Mostly feeling nervous, for some reason I feel I may have a seizure this time, despite being fine on a 400mg dose yesterday.

T+1:00 - As usual the effects start for me just around the hour mark. Feeling very heavy, etc., just the standard DPH stuff. I went to the bathroom around this time and noticed the shower curtain distort and bend toward me, kinda like the 'breathing' walls I would get on acid or whatever. Anyway, that was essentially the only hallucination I got for the entire time.

T+2:00 - Not much going on. I have been getting minor visual disturbances, and they heaviness champion of sport without league of Nations expunge them and who you are pacemaker you do every woman justice without calculator snake to be or not system collapse trying and failing to egg bunny horcrux [signature] no go away coming on. Trying salad grip real dice. I saw my face change RUN

T+schedule on - Pen on fire disposal deliriant of mass destruction. Is cake same? Parently not. Harry. So so so. I seprently feel weird.

T+???? - read between the cross lines to find your awakeness back in action to fancy. My hand barely lets me write. It mined in all for all Aray sometimes cake priposop

T+2:19 - I can do this. control their co'k'L word poverTy. 2 and onry 2 of them will be found forbids paychert

T+???? - weight carry burgeoning economy. This feels natural 7 ways to die. If I try to bwrite with puroopse it doesn't go well.

And that concludes the absolute garbage that was on the page when the trip ended. Essentially no hallucinations which is really lame, but the disorganized speech/writing was kind of interesting . I also wrote a lot of odd meaningless symbols and scribbles here and their. It's very strange to experience not being able to form any kind of meaningful sentence. It's like I know what I want to say at first, but then when I try to write/speak it, random words come into my head and even though I'm trying to complete a thought, the other words almost force their way out. Very strange; my theory is that it happens because the DPH brings out the disorganized speech as a worsened schizophrenia symptom. Not entirely sure I do have schizophrenia (I don't hallucinate at baseline or anything, I think), but that's also why I was on risperidone with the DPH.

Regardless I'm hoping that the reason I never hallucinate on DPH is because of my antipsychotic. I'm getting off of it now so I'll soon find out. I don't see much reason to keep taking DPH if I don't trip. The drunkeness is kind of nice but it's not super worth it for just that. I just really wonder why it doesn't make me hallucinate at high doses while others do on only 200mg.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 112415
Gender: Female
Age at time of experience: 20
Published: Jan 4, 2019	Views: 1,809
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