DOSE:	1 tablet	oral	MDMA
		smoked	Cannabis - Hash

Biking on MDMA

Last week I used MDMA the second time in my life, I have a somewhat moderate-large experience with benzodiazepines, morphine, LSD, DXM and for a year and a half took psychiatric medication (SSRI'S and neuroleptics) and as for this time I might say this was one of the most pleasant but unnerving experiences I ever had.

To put in context: me and two other friends (I will call them Q and JP) spent a week in JP's grandparent's empty house, just something we usually do during holidays, it is located in somewhat a rural enviromnent, maybe a couple hundred people around the village and its surroundings, it has lots of spots near a big ass lake and lots of woods and overall it is a very beautiful place to spend some days.

With ourselves we had a fuckton of hash, 6 grams of weed, JP's parents alchool and 3 200mg MDMA pills (I'm not really sure about this dose but it's what my homie told me and I trust that), anyway, the second day we were waiting for more friends to come but in the end they cancelled so the 3 of us decided to take the MDMA later that night. We spent the evening smoking and had lunch at like 6-7pm, after cleaning and washing the dishes me and Q (who has a larger experience with MDMA than I do) took one pill each and JP decided to take it when we got to the lake since it was his first time.

We started to bike to the said spot which took like 15-20 minutes, when we got there I could already feel the oncome of the drug like it happened the last time I took it, a little talkative and anxious, I asked Q if it was already starting to hit but he told me his metabolism is kind of slow so it would take another while. We biked to another spot and sat there and that’s where it hit me with the force of 69 cosmic hook punches, the jaw clenching, enhanced visuals (lights, colors, I need to say we were right by the lake and it was a foggy night with few weak lights and a starry sky). I started to show them some trippy music (Arca, Lotic, Crystal Castles, Eartheater) and we were tripping balls dancing talking and shit. By this point JP said he was feeling it even though he only took half a pill and we all got really talkative and speeded.

Some moments later we started biking again bc we needed to move run scream or wtv the fuck came to our minds to do, we stopped on some kind of platform that prolongued into the water and spotted there, at this moment JP was euphorical, Q was rolling a joint gazing into the lake and clenching the shit out of his jaw and I started to look at the stars and the lights and got visuals similar to LSD, I started seeing waves, roots and flashes in the corner of my eye spreading into the rest of it but after Q passed me the joint it somehow stopped (I am not sure but a friend of mine told me since I already took acid a few times, MDMA could bring some cool visual stuff). Then we had to bike back home because we were freezing even tho we had like 7 layers of clothes on us but it gets fucking cold there in the winter, also right before that JP split his another half of a pill with Q.

This is when I started to feel the fuzz, cycling on this drug was hell, energetical but nauseous, even tho few cars were on the road every moment some passed by me and fucking flashed my face which at this moment was just morphing, chewing gum and biting itself. Back in the village this anxiety starting to fade away, we got home to get more comfy clothes and refill our water bottle, I could feel the pleasant euphoria again and that strange lucidity even tho I knew how wasted I was, I started to focus on lights and shit bc they were all very bright and floating in ethereal matter 10/10 visuals I shall admit.

We biked to a wooden watchtower and started smoking more hash there. The sky was simply beautiful and the company I had with me was truly great. TJP and Q put on psytrance, for a moment I stopped talking because I could feel the effects slowly washing away so I just gazed into the lake and reflected a bit, it wasn’t anything deep or woke, just simple thoughts as simple as life can get. Most of my fears and negative feelings with which I struggle a lot were silent, not gone, but mute. We stayed there for a little while and biked back home (idk I took the pill around 8pm and it was probably 2 in the morning by then). We reached home and sat in JP’s garden listening to more music. As I was looking for the sky (I was coming down off the drug and preferred to keep a little quiet and let them enjoy) I started seeing patterns in the sky, some kind of flashing colorful mandalas like they were all around Earth like the Ozone Layer. I started to get some scary thoughts about the Universe and it’ vastness and everything we do not know. I went to the bathroom just to check myself and piss and then to the couch to watch some movie with my bros. I really fucking love cinema but we had 4 channels and no internet so I just had to agree and watch a war movie instead of a 3 hour Tarkosky lololol. Either way, it was about American POW’s during Vietnam war in forced labor and there were some torture scenes. I actually enjoy torture horror when lucid but then I was fucking paranoid and depressed just of imagining if I was working in forced labor fields and endure such trauma. However, since I want to study cinema the idea of a psychological/torture gory movie with such theme came to mind and I decided that it is a movie I want to make (but much more heavy than that Hollywood one).

Around 40 minutes later I went to sleep thinking of how grumpy and depressed I would be the next morning since my MDMA comedowns are hellish, this one wasn’t though, I was fucking tired and the first thing I did in the morning after taking a shower was roll a good ‘ol weedy joint and wake my friends to bake, throughout that day and the next days I was really fucking wasted and tired but still drinking and smoking hash and weed and inhaling nitrous oxide until the beginning of this year. So yeah it’s 2nd January and I’m slowly returning to reality and full functional lucidity.

Exp Year: 2018	ExpID: 112763
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 17
Published: Jan 29, 2019	Views: 729
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