DOSE: T+ 0:00	1200 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 1:00	1200 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 2:00		transdermal	Nicotine	(patch)
T+ 0:00	1200 mg	oral	Pharms - Gabapentin	(pill / tablet)
T+ 0:00			Pharms - Bupropion	(daily)

BODY WEIGHT:

250 lb

I’ve been taking Gabapentin for anxiety for a year now.

A little background: I’m mid Thirties, grossly alcoholic (clean now), diagnosed some type of mentally unstable. I take mood stabilizers and antidepressants. This report isn’t about that.

I was prescribed Gabapentin years ago because my shrink thought it was a safe alternative to benzos. He’s probably right. I abuse my prescription…. Or at least I thought I did . I was prescribed PRN 300 mg 4 times a day. I was taking 1200 mg 3 times a day. I asked the Dr. To up my prescription and he obliged. He wrote the script for 1200 mg 3 times a day. Now I walk out the pharmacy with sealed jars of the stuff. Also, I now use more than that some days.

Generally I wake up and take 4 of these 300mg pills, and then I get to work an hour later and take 4 more. This leaves me feeling pretty good. It allows me to focus on work, but not focus on the stupid shit going on around me. I would say I’m just hanging out on a cloud of don’t give a fuck. It leaves me perfectly capable of higher level logic and doesn’t impede my life at all. Except for a few pesky things. 1. I cannot for the life of me think of words that describe my thoughts. Normal vocabulary has just gone out the window in my life.

The next hour I strap on a nicotine patch and I am on a different cloud, this kicks up my energy and prepares me for the morning rush of customers. Now, at this point I have to double check my work, because the small details will slip through the cracks. I am still incredibly relaxed but I do have to be cautious, because if something begins to bother me I can flip shit accidently.

Now it is lunch and I pop 4 more of the pills. Now it is just maintaining the same mindset. Chill and relaxed.

Now I get home and pop 4 more and I get to get lost in the internet. I end up on websites researching the meaningless (there is a word for this I just can’t remember it right now). Several hours of chill ensue and then sleep, rinse, repeat.

Some days I forget if I took them and probably take more, other days I just don’t really need or want them. I read somewhere that a lady reported taking a bunch A BUNCH of these things and she just got the tremors and muscle control issues. I think at most I’ve intentionally taken 8 grams in one day.

This leads me to the other negative effect. It makes me a terrible lover, I can love a screw all night but there is absolutely no orgasm for me at all if I’m on these things. So there are several days that I take way less of them so that I can enjoy myself.

Exp Year: 2019	ExpID: 112819
Gender: Male
Age at time of experience: 35
Published: Feb 12, 2019	Views: 1,646
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